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avatar SourceSkyBoxer 20th November 2016, 11:13 AM

Hello dear Ladies and Gentlemen,

I am sorry for bad English because my ex girl friend ( Philippines ) writes very bad English and makes me sick. I am sorry for my fault because I write bad. I want excuse you because I want write clean English.

My girl friend lies me about wrong age, wrong marriage status of fiance visa and late trust about her past. I am very shocking and I want stop our relationship because she lies me. I don't like that. Sorry my development mess up because my ex girl friend hurts my 1,5 years time.

I am back to single. :( I am sad because I am deaf and who always hurt me. Why? I don't understand why does world always hurt me?

I really want you understand me. That is why my development need fix again. Thanks for understanding and supporting with me!

Best regards Jens E. ( Aka SourceSkyBoxer )


avatar Shepard62700FR says: 20th November 2016, 12:07 PM
She just wasn't worth your love, you'll find a better GF in the future (or she will come at you) ^^
avatar SourceSkyBoxer says: 20th November 2016, 12:15 PM
Thanks my dear @Shepard for comfort! I will find better.
avatar Striker says: 20th November 2016, 12:18 PM
Bring your chin up and don't let this bring you down. In the long term stay true to yourself and be optimistic! Life takes but also gives back for what it has taken :).
avatar SourceSkyBoxer says: 20th November 2016, 13:24 PM
Thanks for comfort! @Striker! I will be an optimist. Do not worry - I work and develop back again. You know I never said bad but my ex said like very bad sentence like suicides example "I am going to kill myself" or "I will die" But I never get fault. I am good because I stop because my parents are very worry for me because my ex is like liar. That is why - I am mad and I decide I leave my ex. I don't like about suicide stories. I will stay alive. You know I was happened by my very old other ex and she leaves and I went to special hospital and my special hospital fixed my life normally. And I am very happy now. I will find other girl. I hope better girl from United Kingdom, Germany, France or other countries.
avatar Admer456 says: 21st November 2016, 13:54 PM
Don't be sad (but maybe a bit angry). I had a similar situation where I learned this:

Even the best plans can end awfully. For now, just look at the 'bright side' of things. Sure, lying is a big thing (and a sin in my religion), but everyone lies, nobody is perfect. Just ignore the bad things, because history can't be changed.

What you're seeing is 'now'. And your 'future' depends on it. You can't go back into the past and change things. Your ex-girlfriend belongs to the 'past'. And where are you? You are now. You're building your own future by doing things now, not before, but now. Don't spend time thinking about your mistakes in the past, they cannot be changed. After all, we learn from mistakes.

Don't get me wrong, I hope you understand what I wrote. Your relationship with your ex-girlfriend wasn't probably a mistake, I'm just saying "don't worry about it".

Also, never plan to kill yourself. Never. There's always someone better, waiting for you.
avatar DiscoStu says: 21st November 2016, 19:46 PM
Admer, I think it was the girlfriend that talked about suicide.

Don't despair, SSB. It sucks. But you will forget her in time, and a new, better one will come along. Right now, you have to go through this period of grief. But know that it all will be good after a while.
avatar Admer456 says: 21st November 2016, 21:41 PM
Well, too late to edit now :D

Another mistake. It is a part of the past, I can't edit it. But what I can edit, is the future. This mistake will help me improve now, and in the future.

See? Everything coincides with what I wrote up there.

Edit: And since my comment isn't past yet, I can edit it.
avatar SourceSkyBoxer says: 23rd November 2016, 16:45 PM
Thanks my dear guys for comforts!

I don't despair that. I think because my ex fights to relationship with restored love. But I need supervisor about relationship but I need distance of my ex and my ex need to learn how does she fix mistake if she doesn't say truth because she is fault to me. I don't think - If my ex want hold me if my ex and me love again.. But I am not sure. I need to think right. If it is okay.
avatar Stojke says: 27th November 2016, 13:11 PM
You need to know what do you want. If you want unreal things there will always be some one that will hurt you. Wanting and receiving is of course closely linked to ability and understanding of reality.

Let God find you the one that is right for you.
avatar SourceSkyBoxer says: 1st December 2016, 16:57 PM
Thanks my dears! I am single now. My big family said me because I need to leave my ex because she doesn't say trust after 1.5 years that is why I must find other girl. My mum said me because I find other girl better than go back to my ex. And I went yesterday to eye doctor and my aunt works for eye doctor and she said me too and I need to leave my ex because it is not good for me. and I understood that. I will find good other girl. Thanks for comforts!

I feel like fresh new life. :) And my daddy and my brothers help me to upgrade new biggest computer ( intel Core i7 or I don't know and Display card is AMD Readon X900 8 Vram and 16 GB memory and 2 x 750 gb ssd hardrive and biggest monitor dell led display 27 inch ( look so close to iMac 27 display ) they cost together over than 980 Euro and I use Windows 7 Pro x64. I don't like use Windows 10 because many universal apps make slow...

You know I use "App Mover x64" It works for all forcing installed apps like Visual Studio or Net Frameworks SDK in drive C: I move with app mover and I check reparation for any software if they have non issues or failures.

Other old hard disk 1 tb from my old computer are only backups for pictures, developed sources and more...

I think because I want get new 3D printer with only "PLA" ( Since today I have watched youtube videos. Is pla better than abs? ).

// EDIT: I am back now. Sorry for long time for my upgrading of my new computer and it is very faster and big. PS: Steam will install later because I am not ready to move my very old hard disk from old computer to my new computer and my daddy does my old hard disk 2 x 1 tb to my new computer.

Now I am using Windows 10 Pro x64
With vmware players:
Mac OS X 10.12 sierra ( original macOS from Apple Store. into my old flash stick 32 gb with whole mac os 10.12 ) PS: It is original loading from EFI / UEFI without hackintosh. I never use hackintosh because I want be serious. I have luck because I have processor Intel Core i7 6700. macOS 10.12 works fine normal like Windows 10 Pro x64 - But I will try to write vmgl-like display driver for macOS 10.12 or I find Putty-like server with hardware-accelerated remote to macOS
Screenshot from my tablet. But it is not illegal.
User Posted Image
=== Warning it is very big ===
User Posted Image

Ubuntu 16.04 in vmware player
FreeBSD 12.1 backup from old computer with VirtualBox :O
Solaris 11.x backup from old computer with VirtualBox :O
I will to convert both os to VMWare Player.

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