Journal #5981

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but tetsuo, you always just had a girlfriend. It was the natural order of things. You were in our minds as rock-band-girlfriend-fast-car-avatar-guy. WHAT ARE WE TO KNOW YOU BY NOW?

*manhug

Thanks huntey.
The band's falling to pieces. The car was never fast. (it's a cavalier)
And i always just had a girl. That was it... I just had her and it really wasnt anything more than that. Unfortunatley

thanks for the support

Well you had good reasons, right? Regardless of how you ended it, there's no need for ridicule.

That whole 'explain it to her family' bit though, yeesh.

Why'd you end it?
Sorry to hear, man.

Tough break. I'd get the parents bit over with and get wasted with some mates. ;o

Sorry to know that, man. Breaking up is serious business and no one will ridicule. Doing it through the internet isn't the best way especially since you have to do some things related to her, afterward, in person; but texting is always worse.

Also, band? Do you guys need a guitarist? puppy eyes

aw man

Sorry to hear about that. No one (unless they're a douche) is going to ridicule you here. Its good that you got it over with.

Oh man, sux 4 u.

But why do you have to explain anything to her parents? What do they have to do with it anyway?

Well i was aiming the ridicule thing at trapt because he was being a dick on IRC about it. But i just got back from her house, talking some things over, explaining the unexplained and all that. Returning her blongings...
turns out she didnt break it to her rents yet and despite both of them being home i didnt even say hello.
In hindsight being at someone's residence without acknowledging them is a bit disrespectful. But i really didnt feel like dealing with them ATM.
@ Jeffmod - Long story short i was lying to myself and her for about 2 months. I've kept hidden inside what i should've just said when i had the chance. I played the coward card and payed the price.

@ Daub - Friday can't come soon enough

@ skoiler - lol if you're located anywhere near connecticut, USA i'd consider forming a sideproject band. But i'm a guitarist myself so we'd need a drummer and a bassist. As for the band falling to pieces; really we're just splitting up for the semester. We'll be back together for the winter breaks, thanksgiving, spring break.. ect etc.

Why do you have to explain to the family? It's not as if you were dating them...

trapt because he was being a dick

Never, ever talk to Trapt about women. He has a very twisted idea of how the world works.

You can't make jokes when Trapt's around either, because he pretends to take them seriously and makes everything generally unfunny

"You can't make jokes when Trapt's around either, because he pretends to take them seriously and makes everything generally unfunny :|"
"He has a very twisted idea of how the world works."

So, basicly you stoped liking your girlfriend? I'm a tad confused (Probably because I've never been lucky enough to get a girlfriend in the first place, yet alone have to dump her/be dumped)
Really rough break, man.

well tet i think you're going a bit overboard by saying i was being a dick. i was being quite supportive in general...

and yeah, never ever talk to me about women. what do i know? all i do is get fucking SMASHED every day and bang random bitches!!!! oh wait, that's not me. apparently thinking women are people and not possessions is 'very twisted,' but hey, what do i know? i've only been in a relationship for over 3 years.

honestly, tough break tet. it's a shame you had to do it on the internet but i understand your reasoning. shit can be tough. you did the right thing, now you can stop lying and hating yourself.

Yeah. My apologies for the overboard stuff. I seem to have a different opinion about you, trapt, almost every day.
But It is a huge relief to finally get everything off my chest..
I feel better, but at the same time i still dont, idk. It's wierd.
I don't hate her.. she she was basically the only person i had to talk with outside my school friends, who are all 3 years younger than me and not really fun to chill with.
She told me that she'll get over it.. eventually, but not to go too far because i am her best friend... I can understand that but i cant help but feel that there will be this awkward tension between us every time we do hang out, if we ever do.