Journals
Wow.. all I can say now is that I'm very very pissed.
Out of the blue my recent Steam account just got vac-banned. Honestly it was the most random thing ever. I haven't even played much in the past 2 months and I haven't cheated since my first account got vac banned. I rebought CS like.. 6 months ago and now this.
Valve's policies saying it's not their responsibility for your steam account and they don't do anything to help you out. Valve or Steam.. its all gay.
I just wish I had an old copy of Half-life or CS.
Steam sucks balls. I just feel the whole Steam idea is very bothersome and unnecessary. Why do we need another program open just to play a game? Doesn't make sense to me and I'm thinking either there was a screw up in the VAC or.. some dipshit hacked my account and stole my password.
But im gonna re-purchase CS again and actually buy HL this time because my first account was given to me by an online friend. I still have all Source games untouched thank goodness and If those games get banned Steam will be getting a nasty letter from me since I'm not even able to play any Source games and I never have played any.
Down with Steam!
Out of the blue my recent Steam account just got vac-banned. Honestly it was the most random thing ever. I haven't even played much in the past 2 months and I haven't cheated since my first account got vac banned. I rebought CS like.. 6 months ago and now this.
Valve's policies saying it's not their responsibility for your steam account and they don't do anything to help you out. Valve or Steam.. its all gay.
I just wish I had an old copy of Half-life or CS.
Steam sucks balls. I just feel the whole Steam idea is very bothersome and unnecessary. Why do we need another program open just to play a game? Doesn't make sense to me and I'm thinking either there was a screw up in the VAC or.. some dipshit hacked my account and stole my password.
But im gonna re-purchase CS again and actually buy HL this time because my first account was given to me by an online friend. I still have all Source games untouched thank goodness and If those games get banned Steam will be getting a nasty letter from me since I'm not even able to play any Source games and I never have played any.
Down with Steam!
So yea today I spent most of my time playing Half-Life. I think my continued game was on hard because I eventually turned on god mode.
Or maybe I was too scared. I was suprised though. I actually played throught parts by myself. I beat half life before thru sven co op and that was fun but it was totally different.
But I really loved the unique brushwork throughout half life. I just loved the feel of playing half-life. It's more of a... figure out the story line for yourself and if you kill someone who can help you out too bad... than the ole' story sequences. i ended up killing myself becaue I killed some scientist on accident just so I could hear what they had to say.
I also tried to get one of my little cousins from california to play Half-life. All he knows is Halo and Halo2 for X-box -_-
He never got used to the keyboard and he didn't get past duck jumping in the training room.
His grandma didn't let him play too long. They're headed off back home tomorrow. They're the last of my family to leave from the family reunion.
It was fun and I noticed some bad things about me. I'll never give up gaming!
Or maybe I was too scared. I was suprised though. I actually played throught parts by myself. I beat half life before thru sven co op and that was fun but it was totally different.
But I really loved the unique brushwork throughout half life. I just loved the feel of playing half-life. It's more of a... figure out the story line for yourself and if you kill someone who can help you out too bad... than the ole' story sequences. i ended up killing myself becaue I killed some scientist on accident just so I could hear what they had to say.
I also tried to get one of my little cousins from california to play Half-life. All he knows is Halo and Halo2 for X-box -_-
He never got used to the keyboard and he didn't get past duck jumping in the training room.
His grandma didn't let him play too long. They're headed off back home tomorrow. They're the last of my family to leave from the family reunion.
It was fun and I noticed some bad things about me. I'll never give up gaming!
So today was the first day of a well needed family reunion. It's been awhile. So yea today we had a bunch of family come from Tampa. Out of all those 20 some odd people I only recognized one. So yea I didn't introduce myself to any of them. I'm not exactly a people person but it was alright. I spent most of my time "trying" to help my dad install a window ac unit for my grandma. Her ac ducts underneat the house is all screwed up because of over the years the dogs chasing cats and tearing them up in the process. That's the downfall of not having skirts around the trailer.
Anyways, there was talk about going to the beach tomorrow. I don't like water that much and I definitely don't like the sun. I can't swim either, well,.. i can't tread water. I guess im helping that stereotype that black people can't swim. heh ,
I've been working on a new map lately. Again, its alway s a learning process for me. I love being able to apply my ideas into my maps. I intended to make this map a cs map but now the layout makes me think of de.
I've also learned to rip hl2 models and convert them to hl1. Took a lot of trial an error. The internet didn't help me much. Worldcraft Dude got my feet wet as to the basic idea but i managed to get teh qc file just right.
But the only model i've included in my map is a couch model from hl2.
meh.. this journal is dragging a little too long for my liking
i'm closing this one up for now.
until next time
Anyways, there was talk about going to the beach tomorrow. I don't like water that much and I definitely don't like the sun. I can't swim either, well,.. i can't tread water. I guess im helping that stereotype that black people can't swim. heh ,
I've been working on a new map lately. Again, its alway s a learning process for me. I love being able to apply my ideas into my maps. I intended to make this map a cs map but now the layout makes me think of de.
I've also learned to rip hl2 models and convert them to hl1. Took a lot of trial an error. The internet didn't help me much. Worldcraft Dude got my feet wet as to the basic idea but i managed to get teh qc file just right.
But the only model i've included in my map is a couch model from hl2.
meh.. this journal is dragging a little too long for my liking
i'm closing this one up for now.
until next time
Nothing beats that.
So scratch the thought of me attending the lan tournament. My dad refused to sign the parental consent waiver because of an earlier decision I made to not attend church. So times are really really rough and it seems that my family will only be good to me if I am a part of their religion. Good thing church and state are seperate. So my dad basically told me I don't have a right to my religion. I have to go to church because that is the rules and I can do different when im 18. well im 17 and when march comes around that will be the time. I just feel like my family here is shunning me because I choose not to go to church.
So yea after my horrible phone conversation with my dad I was terribly mad. I punched my door only to bring my grandma yelling at me and trying to make me feel better by telling me I don't have friends. And as soon as I mentioned that ordeal about me choosing to go to church or not thats when she turned on me and walked away from.
So much for the love grandma. All love in this family is based on religion and i absolutely disagree with it. But apparently im bad for disagreeing.
Yes i've gone out of control but their ignorance pisses me off so much that the only thing I can say is the wrong thing. Nothign I do is right for them.
So yea i just emailed my mom telling her how pissed off I am and that I want to go stay with her for my last year of highschool.
Hopefully she responds back.
I need to get away from these people.
So yea after my horrible phone conversation with my dad I was terribly mad. I punched my door only to bring my grandma yelling at me and trying to make me feel better by telling me I don't have friends. And as soon as I mentioned that ordeal about me choosing to go to church or not thats when she turned on me and walked away from.
So much for the love grandma. All love in this family is based on religion and i absolutely disagree with it. But apparently im bad for disagreeing.
Yes i've gone out of control but their ignorance pisses me off so much that the only thing I can say is the wrong thing. Nothign I do is right for them.
So yea i just emailed my mom telling her how pissed off I am and that I want to go stay with her for my last year of highschool.
Hopefully she responds back.
I need to get away from these people.
So yea, this saturday there is a Lan Event in my area. Panhandle Gamers based in Pensacola, Florida. I'm planning on going and it will be my first lan event ever. I'm a little nervous and excited at the same time. Bad thing is, me being a HL mapper you know my computer isn't gonna meet up to anyone there. It doesn't matter though, I'll be playing CS 1.6 there and I am exceptionally good at that game.
Im not sure if I'm gonna be there all day or not.
It starts from 9:30 AM to 10:30 pm or w/e.. 1.6 is the last game played there so who knows how long that will last.
I only know of two people from my school that are going to be there. One of them I've never met in real life but I played with him in CS once.
The other is a friend I talked with at lunch everyday.
So yea, I'm overall nervous nervous NERVOUS!!
Im excited though so hopefully I'll be able to make it .
Im not sure if I'm gonna be there all day or not.
It starts from 9:30 AM to 10:30 pm or w/e.. 1.6 is the last game played there so who knows how long that will last.
I only know of two people from my school that are going to be there. One of them I've never met in real life but I played with him in CS once.
The other is a friend I talked with at lunch everyday.
So yea, I'm overall nervous nervous NERVOUS!!
Im excited though so hopefully I'll be able to make it .
So yea after being apart of this community for a little bit. I'm very impressed. I get this friendly feeling from the community. I feel most of the people here are very helpful.
But as of now,
Im at a low.
I having family problems. I've done a few things I really regret. I was staying with my dad for like the first 2 weeks of my summer but that turned sour due to my step mom and me. In the end, I ended up cussing at both my dad and my step mom. I stay with my grandma during the school year ever since my dad got married back when I was in 9th grade. Im now going to be a senior in highschool. Basically, I've lived my last 2 years without a huge authority figure in my life.
My grandma doesn't really order me around too much.
I had no problem staying with my dad but I really don't like being yelled at for small problems. So it built up overtime and I usually just let loose.
Hopefully it will turn out good for me. I have one more year and I'll be off for college.
So I'll try to hang on until then.
But as of now,
Im at a low.
I having family problems. I've done a few things I really regret. I was staying with my dad for like the first 2 weeks of my summer but that turned sour due to my step mom and me. In the end, I ended up cussing at both my dad and my step mom. I stay with my grandma during the school year ever since my dad got married back when I was in 9th grade. Im now going to be a senior in highschool. Basically, I've lived my last 2 years without a huge authority figure in my life.
My grandma doesn't really order me around too much.
I had no problem staying with my dad but I really don't like being yelled at for small problems. So it built up overtime and I usually just let loose.
Hopefully it will turn out good for me. I have one more year and I'll be off for college.
So I'll try to hang on until then.
Well hmm..I have no idea waht to put in this random ass journal lol.
neways yea I jsut submitted my first map and I think its pretty fun for gameplay. Apparently brushes and texture-wise, I need a lot of improvement.
But no doubt, I'll catch on and what not.
just a short entry blah blah
n00b #2
neways yea I jsut submitted my first map and I think its pretty fun for gameplay. Apparently brushes and texture-wise, I need a lot of improvement.
But no doubt, I'll catch on and what not.
just a short entry blah blah
n00b #2