Journals

Skoiler6 hours ago2019-11-21 22:22:36 UTC 2 comments
Oh hey I'm reading my past journals and cringing!

How's everyone's day going?
Sometimes,I look at all the modders who have made stuff for several games.
I look at their work with despair,knowing that I will never be able to reach their level or fame.

Sometimes,I feel like I'm on the top of the world,after a long,brutal fight.
Just because I finally rigged that hand,or got that code working properly,or I just could do something right.
Sometimes,I wonder why I'm so stupid.Why I can't figure this thing out.
I feel like I shouldn't even be alive,to be honest,just another soul waiting to fade out.

Sometimes,I tell myself to calm down,that I'm doing all right.
Everyone makes mistakes,at times.Why,then do I always feel that I'm an idiot?
I must've been a pretty irresponsible kid and maybe extending up to a small portion of my teenage,I guess.
Or it's probably how my society/culture/you get the idea is.
I seem to...forget it,there's no point in being hopeful.
Focus,focus! I need to get out of here alive! As it is,the whole place is in shambles,many scientists and guards are dead!
It is all my fault...I shouldn't have pushed that thing in...I could have just stayed with Barney's sister...she's cute and besides,Barney knows nothing.

Focus,Gordon,focus! Stop shaking,steady your aim!

Everything would have gone to hell anyway.Someone else would have pushed it in. I couldn't have stopped anything.I'm alive,that all that matters,
get out and call for help.
I wonder if Breen is alright. I need to get my paycheck from him.....

At least, I hear the military is coming to rescue us.But then,why do I feel like something isn't right?
Never mind.First make it out,then think about it later.

-IA
JeffMOD3 weeks ago2019-10-25 11:16:35 UTC 16 comments
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Hello,

I am very surprised why does it work on Linux now? Eh I can't expect about Windows problem with Trinity Render crashes since changelevel. I am sorry I don't like to exhume from bury of Trinity Render. I feel about mappers wait longer for new update like Redux still not work for Windows. I don't understand why does it work under wine ( Proton ) - It is really impossible that Proton conjures died incompatible games into alive...
Now it works fine for me under Linux with Proton ( wine latest version 4.11.7 )
Result:
User posted image
Flash light throws fine
water looks fine
dynamic light? Don't know....
Main-menu looks dirty oh oh...
Texture looks sometimes scratching - if you use detailtextures = ok.

I swear that I don't scam everyone. Please check out Ubuntu 18.04 and Steam with Proton with Trinity Render 3.08f and you can try out.

I show proof.

_Successful mods: Tested: _
-> Trinity Renderer ( successful, mess up textures and mainmenu looks dirty )
-> Redux ( successful, but it is very catastrophically because detail textures scratch and are hurtfully. )
-> Spirit of Half-Life - Copy from valve/resources to spirit/resources for main menu background fixer and all maps like XXXXXXdemo successfuly no crashes YAY
-> Natural Selection 3.2 ( Works fine completed with navigate menus in right click and no problem YAY! )

Not tested:
-> HL Bump ( very old mod from VERC )
and more..

Failed:
Half-Life Rally - :( When I run onto game mode than it crashes :( Died!!! BYE BYE HL-Rally!! )
SourceSkyBoxer1 month ago2019-10-21 23:10:22 UTC 9 comments
Hello everyone,

sorry I am very busy from my practical training as kitchen helper or cooker at restaurant / hospital. But I have 5 times of accidents. :( My finger is not much cutting. Thanks for worrying me! I am shy to show because my finger in left middle finger :sarcastic:

I am working at XLibSharp ( Wrapper for X11 ) on Ubuntu 18.04 and I have created simple window with button clicking.
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User posted image
It is really easy like Flash's Sprite
example:
Instance of Sprite = 1 = flash player or flash application. But XLib/X11 works also instance of window like sprite.
For XLib/X11 is very close to same to Flash Sprite Api
But I need create display, screen_number and window than I create any components.
XCreateSimpleWindow or XCreateWindow are very different levelly.

Example:
...
private IntPtr window, button;
...
	window = XCreateSimpleWindow(....);
	button = XCreateSimpleWindow(display, window, ...);
...
	XMapWindow(display, window);
	XMapWindow(display, button);
...
	while(true)
	{
		// KeyPress for destroying window with break; It means Close window
		...
		// ButtonPress for clicking event with writing console or making new rectangle or widget of X11
		...
	}
...
XCloseDisplay(display);
I will release soon - I hope I can work sure 100 % with XLib/X11 wrapper for C#. But Steffen Ploetz's X11 libraries are very horrible because X11 libraries with shit enumerators. like TInt, TUlong or TPixel etc.. I really don't understand. I want use default types of mscorlib.dll ( using System; )
That is why I write clean library XLibSharp ( for only Linux, FreeBSD with only 64Bit - but I won't support for Windows - I know you want use with Cygwin's X11 - But I don't care with Cygwin. ) Please respect me! - I will try to create Half-life with XLib/X11 - Wait why it is easy? Because Half-Life has GUI like Steam GUI dialogues/windows. XLib/X11 has support also Vulkan too.

Sorry for longer busy because I have tried to resolve with GtkSharp3 and SDL2 = bad news if I add button than GtkSharp 3 application will crash. That is why I am trying to resolve as successful library for Linux and FreeBSD.

I hope you understand my English.

Best kind regards!
UrbaNebula1 month ago2019-10-17 23:26:20 UTC 25 comments
Pornography with three eyes.

19/10/19 EDIT: Thanks all! Penguinboy was the only one to put way too much thought into this :P

No but really it's:
Pornography = XXX
with three eyes = III
XXXIII = 33 in Roman numerals
TJB1 month ago2019-10-16 22:41:44 UTC 13 comments
I finally got my braces off today. That was probably the longest 18 months of my life.

It feels pretty weird having smooth teeth once again.
Screamernail1 month ago2019-10-06 20:02:46 UTC 14 comments
Yes actually. A great idea!

Being ignored and unable to speak to most people is a problem. Especially when you thought you're doing something great but instead you get no notice.
Suparsonik1 month ago2019-10-05 15:49:17 UTC 8 comments
Birthday.
:)
Rimrook1 month ago2019-10-04 12:12:18 UTC 11 comments
There once was a man named Rimrook,
Who was working a map’s new look
While filled with glee he turned thirty-three
So a day of mapping he took.
The Mad Carrot1 month ago2019-10-03 13:50:19 UTC 6 comments
...my own little kitten!
User posted image
Her name is Mila, 3.5 months old and she came from a 'host family' (not sure about the correct term for this) after being picked up from the streets by the animal shelter. Now she lives with me. Barely 3 hours since she arrived and she's following me around everywhere I go, purring like crazy. This is a perfect match.
Screamernail2 months ago2019-09-12 16:25:31 UTC 8 comments
Jinar

Thought about asking someone to put this on Gmod. But I don't really know if it'll be worth it.
Stojke2 months ago2019-09-07 19:32:16 UTC 6 comments
Found this in one of the boxes - year 1999 , 50th year aniversary of the paper. Pretty interesting, ive never seen that image before, expecially not in combination with an intel processor.
The future is now!The future is now!
Shepard62700FR2 months ago2019-08-29 08:16:50 UTC 12 comments
For one, it's the "greatest handgun ever made".
For me, I programmed it.
I carry 4 of them.
Fully loaded they are.

How many I have?
Rimrook3 months ago2019-08-16 21:08:05 UTC 12 comments
We now have a solid date for Lyssa’s second brain surgery. For those who don’t know, she had an AVM 9 years ago and it grew back and brought a friend.

The date is September 16th. Exactly one month.

Unlike the first time where it was technically two surgeries back to back, this time it will be a two operations simultaneously. It will be done at the top neurosurgical hospital in the country in their most sophisticated lab. Hope everything goes well.