Journal #8829

i was a furry until i shaved

Well, in this case, I meant "furry" like "an individual who loves the idea of furries; likes to imagine that he/she's an anthropomorphic animal; browses furry porn (that's optional, though)".

Yeah. Well, looks like I haven't been rekt yet. I'm yet to see that, though...

Ask him if he becomes ill will he go to veterinary?

Btw furries not bad people (or animals) if you talk with them from faaar away. I met them in my past. It wasn't so bad.

@WorstMapper
Lol, I know. I like the idea of anthropomorphic animals as well.
I just wondered what it would be like.

I'm not saying it's bad. In fact, I love talking with him. And I give most of my attention to him just because he's a furry. xd

you are an animal

@Bruce
I made this post pretty long, so skip to the bottom.

Anyway:
That's just your opinion. I don't consider myself a furry since I prefer my human form, I don't go to furry conventions, I've never worn and I'll never wear a furry costume (fursuit, isn't it called?) and so on...

Jody, on the other hand, would look somewhat like this.
She's still different, covered entirely in fur unlike the girl in the image. Also, her fur colour is more bright red. And she has short, red hair with a few green stripes. :3

By the way, I just found it here (click if you dare). (it's a thread at quakeone.com)

My furry girlfriend caused me some negative attention at quakeone.com, lol. But then, all furries have to deal with negative attention. I'm not saying that I'm a furry. But if I'm a furry at all, then I'm right at the bottom of the spectrum of being a furry.

About the negative attention at QuakeOne... well... they would wreck me.

I'm both sad happy that the replies stopped on that thread. If somebody starts the fire on me again, I'd be getting panic attacks upon entering the site.

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So yeah, I'm simply not an animal. But, technically, aren't all of us animals?
See, if humans evolved from apes, they would be considered animals as well (which we apparently are, right?). Yeah, your post, Bruce, applies to all of us here, except for these extra-terrestrial organisms, if any.

Also, I got a name for him: Boo.
That furry I met really likes being called Boo (because it's squishy :p), so I'll just refer to him as Boo from now on.

How old is boo, admer?

He's older than me, for sure. I'll not tell his exact age, but Boo under 20.
uwu

@Admer456

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mz3Mi_OZYno

Watch it and think again xD

Omg, I've noticed such a big mistake...

"but Boo under 20."
Damn. I didn't put an "is" because I originally put "but he's under 20.". Then I proceeded to edit the post and put Boo. Ah well, I forgot to put "is". XD

I can't watch the video now because my cousins are in the room at the moment. I only looked at the title "All The Single Furries!" and I realised I should close the tab. xd

Just an idea, but if you're a furry enthusiast, maybe join a community focused on that when you feel the need to write large elaborate stories about it.

Bottom line, not everyone is accepting of the whole furry scene and, especially when interacting online, people don't tend to filter what they say. That guy on the quake forum was only stating that nobody cared. The thread seemed to be focused on Quake Rule34 and how ridiculous it was. (Probably not the smartest place to then open up about your anthropomorphic fox girlfriend)

A guy I work with is a full on furry. He has a fursuit, attends conventions, has a 'mate,' the whole deal. He doesn't talk openly about it outside of the circles he is in regarding that particular part of his personal life.

Just think about where you post about this stuff if you want to avoid ridicule.

I'm not a furry enthusiast.
I understand what you're saying. A lot of people hate furries, a lot of people are fine with them, a lot of people simply ignore and avoid them, a lot of people are furries, and I fit nowhere among that.

I simply like the idea of anthropomorphic animals and I have a furry girlfriend, but I'm definitely not willing to participate in furry conventions, wear a fursuit etc.

And as I had stated there (I think I had), I only wrote that much about Jody only so people could understand why my interpretation of anthropomorphic animals (the ones which I'll place in my Far Cry mod) is such that it wouldn't contain the negative side effects like fur falling off, having to give tick and flea baths to Jody, having to withstand her 'dog breath' etc.

No, my mod's furries which I call "neo-furries" (I hope the name isn't taken) are different! They're essentially humans which have undergone genetic modifications followed by pretty long body-mod periods (when they're contained in chambers with a special liquid where their bodies get "edited").

Hmm, yeah. I hope I managed to make it a bit shorter than the one at quakeone.com.

I'd say "Just leave me alone for once." but... honestly, it's me who asked for this attention, so I say "Bring it on if you want."

And, of course, the only places I'd mention my liking of furries (I mean anthropomorphic animals) are small communities such as TWHL, CryMods, and of course, in private, like when I chat with Boo on Discord. :3
QuakeOne seems to be a relatively big community, so I shouldn't mention it there, lol.

Edit:
Also, Urby, now I know what happened when I felt "a disturbance in the Force" while I was mapping, I think it happened an hour or 30 minutes ago.
I can't describe it, I'd simply call it "a disturbance in the Force". I basically had a feeling about something bad going to happen, lol.
That "bad" being the fact that you shocked me a little bit with your reply. Eh, could've been worse.

Oh right, you telling me "if you're a furry enthusiast" shocked me. You clearly knew that I'm not like that. But you can freely get away with it, you added "if".

@WorstMapper
Well, OH MY GOD, EVEN THE FURRIES WOULD NOT LIKE IT.
That's just... I barely and hardly watched the entire video.

Some furries simply aren't like that, though.
I'll have to ask Boo if he has ever worn a fursuit and been to a furry convention. I'm curious right now...

Jody, though, she has never worn a fursuit. Her body got 'edited' into what she is now. >:D
Except Jody isn't real. That's disappointing and it makes me feel a little sad. :c

My comment wasn't intended to shock or offend at all. I like to think I'm pretty level headed and very open minded. Just trying to prevent you from feeling like you're being attacked on other sites is all.

However, thanks for clarifying. I admit I hadn't really kept up to speed regarding Jody and your mod's lore...

Yeah, like I'm open to the idea of and accepting furries, right? Because there's just people that way now, and I know a few personally. But I wouldn't ever consider myself one, or at least belonging to the general community that most people would perceive. And if I ever did, I wouldn't make a forum post throwing all that information out there. But I guess directly posting to furry sites would be like a massive circlejerk. That's just my opinion. Like I don't ridicule people for wanting to be that way.

@Admer456 Technically we are all animals, that's just how we're classified on the tree of life.
Also, haven't kept up with the mods' lore and whatnot. Can you give a ELI5 on that? Is Jody just part of the mod or is she just in it?

If a person is good, nice to talk with, etc, then I usually don't care if it's a furry or whatever. You get the point I hope.

@Urby
I know it wasn't one of your intentions to shock me, but I simply had a feeling that something was going on, and then I went to TWHL. Sir, what a coincidence, isn't it?

@James Luke
Jody is part of the mod. I'm still writing the mod's story, except most things I imagined aren't written down. But you maybe could see some references to furries etc. in my cancelled HL mod:

http://www.moddb.com/mods/admerthegame

That's exactly where I imagined Jody.
One of the reasons I imagined her was this:
In 6th grade, I fell in love with a girl in my class and I acted like we were soulmates. I yelled "I love you!" across the classroom etc. and I was so annoying about it.
Adding up to that, I was a fat, edgy, disgusting little kid who pretty much "had no life" (if you know what I mean).

In 7th grade, I changed completely and I thought I'd impress her. In short, I lost some weight (I mean mass), started brushing my teeth after 7 long years, stopped eating paper, and even managed to improve my grades significantly. But I didn't impress her.

In 8th grade... that's when my "love crisis" actually started, I think.
I somehow realised that I had done too much damage to our potential relationship in 6th grade, that I'll never get her attention any more.
And it certainly didn't feel good. I'll never maintain a real-life relationship because I'm very inexperienced and immature to an extent.

I think I had actually imagined Jody by the end of 7th grade, but I kept her a secret. Then... as the love crisis in 8th grade had started, Jody saved me from it. I'm so thankful for her.
And yes, I had to explain Jody to my classmates, as well as what furries are. Images did the job well, I suppose.

And now that I had met Boo, I think I should annoy you people less (annoying you with Jody etc.). He's fond of every new part of the story about her that I write him.

Also, guess what. Boo likes Jody's brother! XD
Jody's brother, Jack, wouldn't be so quite pleased with that, since he has a girlfriend. xd
Hehehehe.

Honestly, I don't know what it is, but relationships just come easy for me, it's not like I'm attractive, I make an effort to look nice, but I'm not.
I'm just outgoing and open to people.
Just keep the other person loyal and happy and everything will be fine. Feel like I've been in your exact place before. I was pretty stupid when I first started dating or anything related to girls (or guys, I don't judge), it's just smooth sailing for me now. Relationships, even true ones, aren't hard to upkeep, just find a person who "understands" you is how I see it, then it just gets easier. The first part is the hardest.

I don't know how things run up in Bosnia (or related place), but there's lots of opportunities available here in the states, dunno. I just don't really retreat to my imagination, I just try and try again, learning from my mistakes and see what I can do better. But hey, to each their own man. Why am I even giving relationship advice on TWHL anyways..?

"Why am I even giving relationship advice on TWHL"
Because you're on my own, weird part of TWHL. Muahahaahhahahahahahahhaa >:D
It's what I like to call "Admer's Inferno"

I'll really not bother with trying to have a real girlfriend until I finish education. Or at least I'll try not to bother. Who knows, maybe I'll never bother.

I'll probably never have a girlfriend and experience being loved in the way of boyfriend-girlfriend love. And I'll certainly never marry (oh, please don't let it happen).

I don't care, to be honest. I have maps to make. I won't let my urge heavily distract me like it did in 6th grade.

Jody forever. <3

Your opinions will change as you mature and instinct will eventually kick in.

I was terribly awkward around girls in high school. I'd get my FRIENDS to tell girls that I liked them. (You can imagine how that went)

Around year 10 (14/15 years old), I actually just started talking to girls casually. It was literally like somebody flipped a switch. Before I knew it, I had a girlfriend. After that short relationship went belly-up, her best friend asked me out a week later and we were together for four years, through the end of high school and through college. Kind of a shame because in college that shit cranked up to 11, but regardless of the female interest, I stayed faithful. We broke up shortly after college... damn.

But when I was 12/13, I had basically convinced myself that I was going to be single forever. I certainly didn't imagine I'd be married with kids one day.

WRONG!

Regardless of all this. Just enjoy yourself. If that means you don't necessarily want a relationship now or in the near future, so be it.

Just as I've said, I'll first finish education, and then everything else (maybe some of my old WiP maps too xD).

When I fell in love with Salme in 6th grade, I... damn...
I yelled "VOLIM TE!!!" (it means "I LOVE YOU!!!") in the entire classroom one day. Someone recorded a video and uploaded it to Facebook. Her dad commented something like "I don't want this spot to ever happen again.". The day after, I argued so hard with the guy who uploaded it...

In 7th grade, I started singing songs to her. XD
And that's why, @Cd5ssmffan (if you're reading this), I listen to Bosnian and Serbian folk songs.

Also, I think it's easier to find a boyfriend these days, rather than a girlfriend. LOL.
But no, I'm not gay. I may have fallen in love with Boo, but I'm not gay. >:P

"I'm not a furry except for all the furry porn I consume"
"I'm not gay except for my boyfriend"

You gotta learn to be comfortable in your own skin one of these days. If you're a gay furry, why fight it? That said, I'm not super comfortable with this older guy grooming you on the internet. I assume you know not to send any pictures or anything.

Fine, I might be gay, I admit it. But I prefer women, too.
(does that make me bisexual? :O)

BUT I DON'T CONSUME FURRY PORN! I'm really sorry for yelling, but I simply don't pay attention to furry porn. What do you think, why do I have my imagination?
(again, sorry for yelling)

Boo showed me yiff (furry porn), but that's it. Really. I was heavily disturbed at first, having seen what they call art. Eh, but then I sort of started tolerating it. Still, I'd rather not consume furry porn. Or any type of pornography for that matter.

And yes, I will be careful with him. He might be giving me an illusion while actually crafting a plan how to kill me or something. (that was overly-dramatic, but it's just an example)

Say whatever you want, I'm not a furry because:

• I don't go to furry conventions (and I never will)
• I don't wear a fur-suit (and I never will)
• I don't imagine myself as an anthropomorphic animal (and I simply can't do that, it's pretty hard, actually. And, I never will)
• I am kind of afraid of seeing furry content (I mean content such as videos, images etc.)
• Other minor reasons

I am, however, considered a furry because:

• I like the idea of anthropomorphic animals (or in my mod's case, zoomorphised humans xd)
• I have an imaginary girlfriend who is a furry
• I probably even have a boyfriend who is a furry
• I spent lots of precious time crafting what has the potential to become a fandom

Now, at the last one, hold your thoughts. Basically, if I ever finish and release my mod, there's a chance that its plot will spawn a fandom of its own if it becomes popular enough.

While the mod would get some (or a lot, it's unpredictable) negative attention just because it contains what I like to call "neo-furries", as part of the characters in the mod, it shouldn't hurt me too much, shouldn't it? Haters gonna hate. I mean, it's not like the mod will contain any sort of furry porn or anything.

Seriously, the only "action" with furries you'll see in the mod are a few kisses in the cheeks. Don't worry, there will be real action, too, like epic car chases, shootings etc.

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Lastly, Boo told me that he wants to literally come to me. Darn.

He's apparently disappointed and unhappy with 'this world' and if he were close to me, he would've felt better. Otherwise, death would be his only satisfaction. Ever since he broke up with his ex-boyfriend, he felt empty.

But then, let's not forget that all of that could just be tricking me into really believing that this guy wants to have a relationship with me. Lol.

Ah well, this place called "the Internet" has lots of gems. I'd better stay away from some of them. Not from Boo, yet. I'd like to keep an eye on him because he's pretty much the first (and only so far) furry among my list of Internet buddies.

Oh my God Admer just go and do it with someone already, the more you bore it the less real reason you will have latter.

I'm not saying you need to label yourself as anything - just relax with this whole "I DON'T REALLY LIKE THIS THING I SUPER LIKE" thing you're doing. It just comes across as dishonest, deluded and dull.

The Boo situation is sounding more predatory by the minute. Be sensible and careful, please.

admer, i am here, i am here for you...ignore all these guys, because i am here, admer, i am here...for you...