First off, I'd like to say that this is my first journal that I am posting to both TWHL and SoFurry. I'd also like to add the disclaimer that I am not encouraging anybody reading this on TWHL to seek out the SoFurry platform, as that would violate the site's rules. In fact, I'm going to say that if you're not there already, you're not the kind of person who should go there. Anyway, onto the journal.
So I recently started drinking coffee, which is of course much higher caffeine than my previous go-to, Dr. Pepper. Well, last night I drank two coffees and failed to fall asleep at all. It's now five in the afternoon and I'm still not "tired." Which means I see a high likelihood of this becoming a recurring problem...
Why do I keep doing this shit to myself? I'm easily the most self-destructive person I know. I'm going to end up working myself to death, or lazing myself into morbid obesity. I can't find a middle ground in anything. I like to say that I don't think in black and white, but I can't seem to find the gray...
Second: You say "last night" you drank two coffees? Here's a crazy idea. Don't drink coffee at night before trying to go to sleep.
If you find yourself enjoying the taste of coffee and would like some in the afternoon anyway, I can recommend caffeine-free coffee. Alternatively cocoa (either as hot chocolate or a bar of dark chocolate) is also a source of caffeine but at a much lower dose and better to have in the afternoon than coffee.
As for the last part, self-destructive behaviour is often a symptom of some other cause, like stress, anxiety, and it could help to talk to someone professional about it.
Never doing that again unless I really really reallyyyy have to. Few things in life are worth sacrificing one's sleep.
All I end up doing is just falling asleep anyway
But yeah if it affects you a lot and you want to drink it at nighttime then just get some decaf, it tastes the same.