We trudge through our lives, day by day, step by step. We eat, we breathe, we sleep, we survive.
In short, we exist. But it's not enough to merely exist. Exisitence for existence's sake is failure. To truly be sucessful, we have to live.
And to live, we have to think, feel, fall in love, and create.
It's not always easy to live. We have our share of bumps and bruises along the way. We'll think things that just aren't true, feel emotions that we'd rather not. Perhaps we develop feelings for the wrong person, or find that something we've created has a fatal flaw. Maybe we simply fall flat on our faces and break something. Human bodies are fragile like that.
But we can't let those brusies stop us. If we become bitter over them, then we'll have lost sight of what truly matters. In order to keep living, we have to keep striving for our goals. Because it's our goals that make us human.
So don't despair. It's too early to give up. Pick yourself up off the floor, dust yourself off, and get back on your road. Because there's still much to learn. There are a million things left to feel. You will find your true love. And before you close your eyes one last time, you'll make something wonderful.
Because even though you died, you lived first.
Is our Jeff in love? Has his heart been broken?
Stu: My heart has not been broken. Nor am I in love. Anymore.
Perhaps I am not very successful at this part because I tend to transform it into a long-term objective. But long term objectives are composed of small actions that lead to them. And men of action, who don't tend to be idealistic or shy, achieve this.
While I... am stuck in a vicious loop...
"So don't despair. It's too early to give up. Pick yourself up off the floor, dust yourself off, and get back on your road. Because there's still much to learn"
I have learned and still learn the hard-way that to be able to this, you must first get rid of your dependance on other people's opinions. I never considered myself like that, but I came to realize that subconsciously I was affected by it.
I have wasted too much time trying to integrate myself into circles of friends that are not compatible with me. Was I the problem? I don't think so, it's just that I pick the wrong groups. I can't blame other people for my mistakes. The worst part is that trying to make new friends is a social effort, and at some point you get tired. You get tired of you being the only one trying to open a conversation, even though you're not good at it. Thinking of questions is itself a social effort, and receiving short, cold answers is... tiring.
I think that kind of feedback has transformed me in a person who is not feeling comfortable anymore to ask someone out.
It's hard to reinvent yourself. Maybe impossible...
Well, that's why I wrote this. Because I know I'm not the only one out there who needs a little encouragement from time to time to time to time to time.
Be yourself and confident about your convictions, whatever they may be, and people(not just the opposite sex) will naturally be attracted to you. "Socially awkward" is lie!
You are the king, the duke, the commander, and the chairman, and everyone knows it! Believe it sir!