Journal #8801

Well done, you created the equivalent of a clickbait journal.

Well, seeing that no-one is interested finding it out the harder way, I could've told it in the first place, to not make it clickbait.

Out of curiosity, I watched a video of what could be considered furry porn. Not a big deal, really (considering the actual content doesn't have any naked body parts etc.), but I had an awful experience afterwards.

I guess it could've been worse.

Everyone gets off to their own weird shit. Don't freak out and repress yourself, but also don't feel you need to make it part of your public identity.

I went through a phase of being into ecchi art in my early teens; it was a phase that, while I don't regret, I'm very glad I didn't allow to seep into reality. That road leads to bronies

There's an argument to be made for always feeling comfortable expressing who you are inside to the world, but I prefer to maintain a sense of societal normality. It just makes life easier. Plus it's way more taboo and exciting if it's your dirty secret.

You know, my horrifying experience might have been a result of a panic attack. I think that's what happened, lol.

Now I'm calm, hopefully. It was just such a big scar that I had to show it, sorry.

But other than that, I'm still not a furry.

Random guy comes and says: Sorry to break it to you, but you've just become a furry.
No, you're wrong, Mr. Random Guy! I did it only from curiosity. Though, since that topic (being a furry or not) is still very debatable, a lot of people would think of me as a furry. Just stop it...

you know what they say about kids and the internet

there be some freaky stuff on the net, even the weird side of Youtube is enough to put me on edge

i am absolutely not surprised by this

i think you should watch 2 girls 1 cup, that was easily the coming-of-age / "what is wrong with this world" video that fucked up my generation

although in all honesty, as much as you are totally allowed to have your own fetishes of any scope ( within legal limits ), it's not something that's really shared online and not really shared in reality. It's a very intimate thing that can cause others to be prejudiced towards you.

However, there are exceptions - people know far too much about my personal life from drinking games, for better or worse

I suggest not to get involved in any kind of porn, real or not.
One thing is liking a drawing due to its contours and resemblance of a human body, another is wasting time with "falling in love" with it.

I suggest you should have your penis removed and live a sinless life free of human sexuality. If at any point you choose you want children, artificial insemination should still be an option.

@Stojke
I've never said I will get involved, lol. I'll just stick to my imagination since it serves me the best.
(my imagination just involves my girlfriend, no-one else)

@Dimbeak
Why?
No, I'll not remove my penis.
Besides, I will not have children, hopefully.

@Instant Mix
Oh, OK...
As I've mentioned, I had a panic attack so I rushed and wrote the journal.

Stojke just shat on every weeb's waifu with that. Lmao

He probably watched a Furry gif.

@Rimrook
It's in my watch history on my YouTube channel: Admer456.

thanks to google's 'algorithm', you can expect to see many videos similar to that, everytime you go on youtube, and it will also be in the 'recommended videos for you' list for every video you watch

Not quite. I can still mark the videos as "Not interested". Haha.