I have no more tricks left for you

Posted 1 month ago2019-04-17 20:05:36 UTC
Striker StrikerI seriously doubt myself
They're all right you.
I almost forgot to post about it.

I have nothing new to report. My life - quite bland. The life of a developer quite hammers you hard into a single spot - I mean, it depends... I sort of have long term goals. I had some moods here and then. Probably I need more sleep. Have many ideas. So little time to implement. When I have time - procrastination takes place. I feel like I lack the enthusiasm I used to have. I feel grateful, although I'd like to feel even more gratitude, for the friends I have.

At the beginning of this year I had some big plans to implement some kind of self-organizing system and possibly use some software to achieve and measure my ideas turned into tasks, turned into projects. Turns out that's a big project also. Or are these just surface motives cloaking the fact that I'm not ready to sacrifice my time for that? Who knows! It's hard to know yourself :nuts:

I'm taking guitar lessons. I'm trying to build a weather station. I'm trying to find a relationship. Turns out I'm too shy and hammered in my patterns to do that. I need massive amounts of courage to get out of the comfort zone.

As I watch other people, I wonder if they put in a lot of effort to get where they are, to have the relationships they have, or it was just chance and they were just riding the waves of destiny?

It's hard to build a life.
Is it worth it?

I hope this doesn't sound depressing or anything. Just some thoughts of mine.

2 Comments

Commented 1 month ago2019-04-18 09:28:12 UTC Comment #101957
I think you are overthinking stuff. Just choose one thing and do it. Pure determination or so they call it? I have noticed that the biggest cure to depression is to kick your own ass and do whatever you dream about. That is not easy and everyone finds the strength in different places but I tell you, once you get on the road you won't regret it. There's lots of discouraging and distraction these days, don't let that affect you.
Commented 1 month ago2019-04-18 20:37:48 UTC Comment #101958
Time is limited, your choice of life not so much.
If you take all of those other things out and focus on one thing only you will most definitely succeed. It is impossible to do something fully with out focusing solely on that.

Creatively said, if your grandma had wheels she would have been a bike. So just like that if you want to do all those things with all of these limitation you must be much more than human, and youre not.

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