Giant Dump
Posted 5 years ago2019-05-27 12:51:16 UTC
And it’s a real steamer.
So thing have been compounding for a little while and I should vent lest I go insane. I’ll keep the points short.
I’ve been battling severe depression but I’m on some antidepressants so I’m ok. I’ve been officially diagnosed with with it.
I also have been diagnosed with autism which explains a fuck lot.
Lyssa has not one but two anomalies in her brain and needs another craniotomy to fix so we’re doing that again. She’s in tremendous pain all the time now.
My job as an illustrator really sucks.
SMJ has a prototype build ready that tests underlying systems. Story for the demo is in the works but the whole game needs a rebuild on an updated version of the engine so it runs better and has more features. Long time coming. Also I can map while running the game which is a cool functionality.
If you think SMJ is near completion, it’s not. I don’t even have the first level. I’m still experimenting with every aspect. Gotta get it just right ya know?
I could use help. Anyone with writing experience or as a hobby, let me know. I should have the story solid before anything else and it’s loose at best.
So yeah things are rough but I’m feeling optimistic. I really need support in so many different ways right now :/
So thing have been compounding for a little while and I should vent lest I go insane. I’ll keep the points short.
I’ve been battling severe depression but I’m on some antidepressants so I’m ok. I’ve been officially diagnosed with with it.
I also have been diagnosed with autism which explains a fuck lot.
Lyssa has not one but two anomalies in her brain and needs another craniotomy to fix so we’re doing that again. She’s in tremendous pain all the time now.
My job as an illustrator really sucks.
SMJ has a prototype build ready that tests underlying systems. Story for the demo is in the works but the whole game needs a rebuild on an updated version of the engine so it runs better and has more features. Long time coming. Also I can map while running the game which is a cool functionality.
If you think SMJ is near completion, it’s not. I don’t even have the first level. I’m still experimenting with every aspect. Gotta get it just right ya know?
I could use help. Anyone with writing experience or as a hobby, let me know. I should have the story solid before anything else and it’s loose at best.
So yeah things are rough but I’m feeling optimistic. I really need support in so many different ways right now :/
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Happy to hear you're still working on SMJ, and I'd be more than willing to help out with the story anyway I can. I have no professional writing experience, but I certainly enjoy it.
In my case depression turned out to be not doing something yourself you know you can do yourself, it all spun around that.
I almost took to the graphic design rout before myself but after doing a few free lancing jobs with it, I realized how picky people can be.
I work in the CAD Drafting industry and have for 5+ years now. It's very tough tedious work but I plan on shifting more towards the 3d side of things.
Currently learning Solidworks and Inventor.
I'll let you know how that goes, I know that's something you could easily do.
Hope everything goes well for both of you. You deserve it.
In my experience (I have an Asperger's AKA Autism Spectrum Syndrome diagnosis and know and have met lots of people with different neuropsychiatric diagnoses) it's common when one is first diagnosed with something like Autism to have some weird feelings about it. Sometimes shame and a fear of inferiority, sometimes pride and a sense of being smarter and better than neurotypicals. If, God forbid, you ever find yourself thinking in those kinds of tracks, it might help to remind yourself that your diagnosis doesn't define you, it just describes a few aspects of you. It can help you and others to understand you better, but it's just some papers and always remember that being one of the many people with the same diagnosis doesn't make you any less of an individual.
I don’t doubt that people are slowly evolving/mutating.
Potatis, that’s rather uplifting. Just wish there were options for me to improve our situation.
And thank you everyone for the support.
Sorry to hear about your recent plights. Life is never easy, but sometimes it's harder than others. I know things will get better, because that's also how life goes.
I am a behavioral pediatrician who helps kids with ADHD and autism. I just attended an autism convention that specifically addresses adults with autism dealing with depression and anxiety.
The keynote speaker at the convention was Steve Silberman, and I read his book NeuroTribes many years ago. It provides an updated and more nuanced perspective on autism. I highly recommend it.