Journals
How's everyone coping? I'm doing good, same old same old. Just practicing social distancing and using hand sanitizer more. Stocked up on grocieries yadayada.
When fate and destiny aren't on my side, and when luck doesn't happen to have anything to give me at the moment, then I know for sure, time is only on my side.
And that's gonna take a while. I'm definitely hoping for a miracle to happen, you know. I don't know when it'll happen, I don't know IF it'll happen, but I'm certainly hoping that it will. The two greatest things in life I've ever had experience with, are both words that begin with F.
It's not fraud (never had that), it's not fire, it's not fu--ing (heck, I never experienced that either), it's not fish either, even though it's pretty good, especially trout, mmm, but rather, it's forgiveness and friendship.
There's hardly anything in this world I wouldn't forgive to someone else, and there's hardly anyone in this world who could make me feel as good as a true friend could, someone I feel I don't yet have. Well... at least yet.
Those two words kept appearing in my dreams in one form or another, and almost every time it's the same story. I either ask for it, or beg for it, and then everything seems to become positive, go back to normal. Then I wake up, sweating and in fear. I don't know why, because I don't remember most of the dream. I sometimes really wish to cry or at least sob silently. I can't scream because my soul is already screaming. It's been screaming for weeks...
All I know is, something, or someone, haunts me. It's not really an "it", to be exact. God knows what could've gone better if I hadn't said the right thing in the wrong time. It might be too late now, but at least I've learnt an important lesson.
Who knows, maybe it's not late yet. After all, time is on my side. Time knows what the best moment will be. Time has brought back a lot to me, that I once lost. In turn, time just took... time. My patience, my will to wait for things, that's gonna remain infinite. I'll let time take as much as needed, since both of us need it.
Heh. Time... I feel like someone out there likes testing my patience for certain things.
Always remember to forgive each other, people. Forgive, but never forget.
Speaking of time, today I became an adult. Damn. Wish it came sooner.
And that's gonna take a while. I'm definitely hoping for a miracle to happen, you know. I don't know when it'll happen, I don't know IF it'll happen, but I'm certainly hoping that it will. The two greatest things in life I've ever had experience with, are both words that begin with F.
It's not fraud (never had that), it's not fire, it's not fu--ing (heck, I never experienced that either), it's not fish either, even though it's pretty good, especially trout, mmm, but rather, it's forgiveness and friendship.
There's hardly anything in this world I wouldn't forgive to someone else, and there's hardly anyone in this world who could make me feel as good as a true friend could, someone I feel I don't yet have. Well... at least yet.
Those two words kept appearing in my dreams in one form or another, and almost every time it's the same story. I either ask for it, or beg for it, and then everything seems to become positive, go back to normal. Then I wake up, sweating and in fear. I don't know why, because I don't remember most of the dream. I sometimes really wish to cry or at least sob silently. I can't scream because my soul is already screaming. It's been screaming for weeks...
All I know is, something, or someone, haunts me. It's not really an "it", to be exact. God knows what could've gone better if I hadn't said the right thing in the wrong time. It might be too late now, but at least I've learnt an important lesson.
Who knows, maybe it's not late yet. After all, time is on my side. Time knows what the best moment will be. Time has brought back a lot to me, that I once lost. In turn, time just took... time. My patience, my will to wait for things, that's gonna remain infinite. I'll let time take as much as needed, since both of us need it.
Heh. Time... I feel like someone out there likes testing my patience for certain things.
Always remember to forgive each other, people. Forgive, but never forget.
Speaking of time, today I became an adult. Damn. Wish it came sooner.
In late 2019, my PC suffered a major blow. Several power failures had crippled the PC, and it required immediate maintenance.
During the long absence, The Graphics card was burnt and had to be replaced. (an AMD Radeon HD 7000 for those who are curious)
In order to bring myself back in action with Hammer, I used a laptop to substitute the PC for a while....
Thankfully, It came back today with a new Nvidia Geforce card. (not a good one, but that's alright for now.)
I ported all of my work on the laptop to my computer. Things are finally back in shape!
What a wild new year this is gonna be.
During the long absence, The Graphics card was burnt and had to be replaced. (an AMD Radeon HD 7000 for those who are curious)
In order to bring myself back in action with Hammer, I used a laptop to substitute the PC for a while....
Thankfully, It came back today with a new Nvidia Geforce card. (not a good one, but that's alright for now.)
I ported all of my work on the laptop to my computer. Things are finally back in shape!
What a wild new year this is gonna be.
So, some of you may know that my style of studying is based on 3 principles:
In other words, I wanna work on projects as much as possible, while studying as less as possible, while still maintaining a 4.50 GPA at least.
Now, here's the thing. The 1st semester ends on the 31st of December here, and then the winter break starts. The problem is, my GPA is 4.28 at the moment. It used to be 4.4 until I ruined my score in Electrical Measurements and Digital Electronics, decreasing them both from 5 to 4.
(quick reminder: 5 here is A, 4 is B, 3 is C, 2 is D, and 1 is F)
So now, instead of improving Electronics and Democracy, I also gotta improve German and Bosnian to pass with a GPA of 4.50, which is the bare minimum to pass with an excellent status, otherwise it'll write "very good" on the paper, which my parents, grandparents, and the whole family would absolutely hate.
Well, today I managed to improve German, at least I believe so. We had a written schoolwork and I did it for an A.
Tomorrow, however, is the judgment day.
I got an Electronics test, Democracy test, and a Bosnian oral exam. The chances of me getting A's in all three are 15%. Lol.
The day of judging all my sins (of me not studying). The time will come very soon, unfortunately, but at least I've been preparing. I hope I'll survive, and if I do, then my winter break starts right on the 27th of December, cuz' I got no exams left afterwards.
Merry Christmas folks, happy holidays, I wish you all the best, soon it'll be 2020, it's been nice and everything, blah blah blah, I don't even celebrate Christmas, lol.
Now excuse me, I gotta go study for once. :3
- study as less as possible at home
- try to understand and memorise (if needed) as much as possible in class
- study at home only when you really don't know (e.g. for Democracy class)
In other words, I wanna work on projects as much as possible, while studying as less as possible, while still maintaining a 4.50 GPA at least.
Now, here's the thing. The 1st semester ends on the 31st of December here, and then the winter break starts. The problem is, my GPA is 4.28 at the moment. It used to be 4.4 until I ruined my score in Electrical Measurements and Digital Electronics, decreasing them both from 5 to 4.
(quick reminder: 5 here is A, 4 is B, 3 is C, 2 is D, and 1 is F)
So now, instead of improving Electronics and Democracy, I also gotta improve German and Bosnian to pass with a GPA of 4.50, which is the bare minimum to pass with an excellent status, otherwise it'll write "very good" on the paper, which my parents, grandparents, and the whole family would absolutely hate.
Well, today I managed to improve German, at least I believe so. We had a written schoolwork and I did it for an A.
Tomorrow, however, is the judgment day.
I got an Electronics test, Democracy test, and a Bosnian oral exam. The chances of me getting A's in all three are 15%. Lol.
The day of judging all my sins (of me not studying). The time will come very soon, unfortunately, but at least I've been preparing. I hope I'll survive, and if I do, then my winter break starts right on the 27th of December, cuz' I got no exams left afterwards.
Merry Christmas folks, happy holidays, I wish you all the best, soon it'll be 2020, it's been nice and everything, blah blah blah, I don't even celebrate Christmas, lol.
Now excuse me, I gotta go study for once. :3
Hey all.
I've been away for some time. Doing.... Things....
The band has been taking off so I'm my free time I've been focusing mainly on music and supporting the band. I've been making animated promos with blender and my 3D art is actually featured on the album cover.
www.positivechaos.com
I've also come a long way as far as my career.
For YEARS I wanted to do SOMETHING with rockets. I quit my job in CT and moved to Florida to chill with the band. I got a job doing amusement park rides (think Disneyland) which was cool but it wasn't rockets. (Actually the job sucked big time, it was only cool in theory)
Now I'm doing rockets.
I support ULA (United Launch Alliance) during launches by monitoring for gas leaks during fueling and post launch.
I made it into the last Twitter promo video: (I'm @ 14s in the silver shirt standing behind the control console)
ULA (@ulalaunch) Tweeted:
At ULA, our team and our rockets have a tremendous responsibility. https://t.co/VKTmQUFYnL https://twitter.com/ulalaunch/status/1207948332846518275?s=20
I'm also supporting Blue Origin by being on the engineering team that is building their launchpad.
This isnt just me promoting my band or showing off about rockets.. I want to tell all of you to never give up. Keep making small steps towards your goals and you can realize them. When I failed out of college I thought I screwed up big time. But I kept at it and 10 LONG years later I'm here.
I wish all of you good luck in your life and hope you have good health in the new year.
I've been away for some time. Doing.... Things....
The band has been taking off so I'm my free time I've been focusing mainly on music and supporting the band. I've been making animated promos with blender and my 3D art is actually featured on the album cover.
www.positivechaos.com
I've also come a long way as far as my career.
For YEARS I wanted to do SOMETHING with rockets. I quit my job in CT and moved to Florida to chill with the band. I got a job doing amusement park rides (think Disneyland) which was cool but it wasn't rockets. (Actually the job sucked big time, it was only cool in theory)
Now I'm doing rockets.
I support ULA (United Launch Alliance) during launches by monitoring for gas leaks during fueling and post launch.
I made it into the last Twitter promo video: (I'm @ 14s in the silver shirt standing behind the control console)
ULA (@ulalaunch) Tweeted:
At ULA, our team and our rockets have a tremendous responsibility. https://t.co/VKTmQUFYnL https://twitter.com/ulalaunch/status/1207948332846518275?s=20
I'm also supporting Blue Origin by being on the engineering team that is building their launchpad.
This isnt just me promoting my band or showing off about rockets.. I want to tell all of you to never give up. Keep making small steps towards your goals and you can realize them. When I failed out of college I thought I screwed up big time. But I kept at it and 10 LONG years later I'm here.
I wish all of you good luck in your life and hope you have good health in the new year.
The Whole Map Vault
Firstly, The Whole Map Vault is going to be moving back by one day, and will now start at 22:00 Friday UTC. It will also be slightly shortened from ~2 hours to ~1.5 hours to make room for...
Sort Our Souls
In this new weekly stream, I will be playing through the entire Dark Souls series, and in the process, I will create an "extremely scientific" ranked list of every single Dark Souls boss! Sort Our Souls will start at 00:00 Sat UTC. This is ~30 mins after TWMV ends. (Just to give me some time to go and have some breakfast and freshen up after the rigors of looking at map vault maps!)Hope y'all pop along! I've been looking forward to doing this for a good while now!
I believe that this is what Maynard James Keenan was referring to
Oh hey I'm reading my past journals and cringing!
How's everyone's day going?
How's everyone's day going?
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Pornography with three eyes.
19/10/19 EDIT: Thanks all! Penguinboy was the only one to put way too much thought into this
No but really it's:
Pornography = XXX
with three eyes = III
XXXIII = 33 in Roman numerals
19/10/19 EDIT: Thanks all! Penguinboy was the only one to put way too much thought into this
No but really it's:
Pornography = XXX
with three eyes = III
XXXIII = 33 in Roman numerals
I finally got my braces off today. That was probably the longest 18 months of my life.
It feels pretty weird having smooth teeth once again.
It feels pretty weird having smooth teeth once again.
Yes actually. A great idea!
Being ignored and unable to speak to most people is a problem. Especially when you thought you're doing something great but instead you get no notice.
Being ignored and unable to speak to most people is a problem. Especially when you thought you're doing something great but instead you get no notice.
Birthday.
There once was a man named Rimrook,
Who was working a map’s new look
While filled with glee he turned thirty-three
So a day of mapping he took.
Who was working a map’s new look
While filled with glee he turned thirty-three
So a day of mapping he took.
...my own little kitten!
Her name is Mila, 3.5 months old and she came from a 'host family' (not sure about the correct term for this) after being picked up from the streets by the animal shelter. Now she lives with me. Barely 3 hours since she arrived and she's following me around everywhere I go, purring like crazy. This is a perfect match.