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Talking to Myself: Part.1 of God only knows how many...

I don't expect anyone to read this and even those who do will find the content somewhat lacking in entertainment value. I really have nothing of any interest to talk about.

I am sitting at my desk on a forum I used to visit at least once a day and now only find time for twice a week or so. So why the HELL would I keep a record of my thoughts here? I have no idea. Maybe its just a way for me to vent my various frustrations and other feelings to an audience that might...just might...be as fucked up as I am. Jesus, I sound like a little emo bitch.

Yet here I sit, the last few hours of my week long holiday slipping away, typing every thought that comes into my head, the backspace key still present but unused. Why type out something only to dwell on it before backtracking and sugar coating it for the benefit of the audience, so as not to offend? These are MY thoughts. Why should I allow my own portrayal of cencorship to gag my own opinion? Why should YOU?

I guess what I'm trying to say is do not be afraid to speak your mind, maybe others will speak theirs in return. Don't hide being a facade of numbers or ratings or 1337 sp33k because nobody will take you seriously.

I'm aware that this kind of nonsensical rambling holds no place in an internet forum designated to creative design and production which is exactly the reason I posted it in my journal. I am also painfully aware that this journal entry will have a comment section, which will most likely be filled with flaming and dismissive statements. But if you felt at least a spark of realisation in reading this then stand out from the masses and say something.

I decided I hate gold source. I know , it's challenging and stuff like that but I began to understand it's limits . It really sucks . I mean , in source you can build huge maps and the overall performance doesn't drop much .

I want to purchase this summer halflife 2 and start mapping for source , if it comes to outdoor maps . Can I purchase 3 games at a time ? I want to purchase halflife 2 , hl2 ep2 and garry's mod .

But I'm a little nostalgic so ..... I'll map or goldsource for now ......

Im done making my website www.freewebs.com/halflife_genius

Please do comment on the site i really accept suggesstions. (kinda ugly i think)

I want to overclock my PC so can somebody tell me a good program to do it? (I don't want to do it by BIOS)

Haven't uploaded anything in a while. I haven't stopped mapping, just too busy. Frag Fence on the other hand is going really well; about 89% complete.

Random thing I found today:
Have you got an ocelot?

And my theme!
Gimme some cake!

Left = old version
Right = new revisionUpdate:

I passed 2 exams , I only have one more to go .... after this - freedom ! behold ! the holidays are coming ! And with the holidays is coming the mapping , too

Spoiler Stupid thing

Ok so today I was doing my homework and someone added me at Skype, I was on a pure random moment so that's the conversation we had:

[20:03:06] fin_friend dice:hello
[20:03:10] fin_friend dice:who are you
[20:03:19] Spike dice:lolololoL
[20:03:22] Spike dice:ROFLMAO
[20:03:30] Spike dice:I'm a FBI Agent
[20:03:36] Spike dice:have you seen Pedobear?
[20:03:42] Spike dice:I'm looking for him
[20:03:50] fin_friend dice:no adios
[20:03:57] Spike dice:Wait
[20:04:04] Spike dice:I'm a FBI special agent
[20:04:15] Spike dice:I must catch Pedobear

The user has deleted me :_(

After a semester of homework, projects and being forced to learn unreal editor , I can finally return to my true love, HAMMER!#@!#! So yea, I thought I would upload a few screen shots of the first map I made in unreal editor for school. For those of you who have never used it, it WILL dominate you and make you say Oklahoma. The map didn't turn out too bad... but now I am off to work with my baby on my map.

Oh, the requirements for the level were basically

• vehicle combat
• wide open area

so there was obviously a lot of freedom. I wish I could have had some more time to spice up the boring terrain, but we were short on time. I have no interest in fixing it since school is over :[.

My new climb (kz) map:Enjoy

So I totally got one of these today and it was weird? I have no idea what she's talking about but... yeah...
Censored for privacy sake

From: *************@aol.com
"hi.. you don't know me but i know who you are. i looked you up on Rude you have a profile there and live in my town

i might sound forward but really i have no friends.. im a girl and need to be 'introduced' so to say. i dont care if nothing happens between whatever i just want to talk to you. we are very similar i never met someone like that. i cant check my email if you write back but you can talk to me on any of my screen names below. ill prove to you im real i got my webcam and pics

Yahoo: **********

AIM: **********

MSN or Hotmail: ************@hotmail.com"

Sorry , I'm stopping the build progress for 1 week and a half , as I have to learn for exams . And something else is that I'm reading a c++ book . But don't worry , the campaign will appear after 1 month-2 months or much faster ( because I really ENJOY mapping) and you'll be able to play it .
Hope you understand . Ta ,ta !

Before:After:

For me, today, was my last day at university this year as I break up for a long summer break!

What will I be doing? Well I plan to learn 3DS Max some more, work on my mod for HL2, write more blog entries, play MGS4, DBZ: Burst Limit, GTA 4 etc and generally have a good time!

Next week I'll be free to record more EP2 and Portal videos so expect plenty then! Oh I'll also upload my Games Coursework 'game' for those who want to try and beat my score of 26 ^^ It's a fun yet simple game where you move a spider across the top of the screen and click to abseil down catching good bugs and avoiding the bad bugs.

And to add to this post I must say a farewell to Maria Love who left UEL for a sexier games course. My friends and I gave her a 'Good Luck' card, a Game Voucher and a Tomb Raider figurine (Because she never stopped going on about it :)...)

Have fun Maria!

Here is her selection of blogs for those who are interested:

http://www.blogger.com/profile/01339726052153206293

Have a good summer everyone!

(Sources: Summer Picture: http://photosbypaulm.blogspot.com/2006/07/summer-sunflower.html)

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