Fellow TWHLers,
How many people never change? Well, I never. And the reason I never was because I enjoyed life just the way it was, I did'nt care about anything but the stuff I really enjoyed. But even the best of us grow tired within, once we thought we have finally mastered the true secrets of making an unforgetable map. Perfectly textured, perfectly scaled, just perfect, and then its as almost as if it is not recognized to the world, yes, you'll recieve a few comments, but its never enough, you always strive for more.
So you become a creator. Your imagination flows wilder then ever as you load up Hammer, once again. You create something wonderful, the architect as you have known to be hidden deep inside you is released. The excitement as you click the upload button to show off once again what you think will become an unforgettable map. You get a five-star review, and yet another later that day, and another follows, but it has 100 views, and only 8 downloads. The dissatisfactory lingers. And you load up Hammer once more. Starring at the blank workspace.
5, 10, 15 minutes pass, and your still infront of your screen, you hit the 'X' in the top right corner, still dissatisfied.
You visit the forums. And notice a mod team looking for help. You apply. Without hesitation it seems, they greet you with open arms. And the fire starts up inside. You load up Hammer. Hours pass as you continue to work. First part is done, you marvel, and take screenshots to show the people you don't know. Your not expecting pointers from others, since you know you have a winner. The team reply's with excitement, each one taking mental notes. You go back to work... a few weeks pass, and compile times are long. You can't wait until the mod is completed, so you can show everyone what you have been apart of. And maybe then, you will be recongized from the greatest of great mappers around the globe.
But then you step back into reality, your flame goes out, as you look through all the other mods out there, you see hundreds. And wonder what the point is. I don't know if it's because I've recently turned 20 years of age and am now thinking about what I want to do with the rest of my life. But I now realize that I won't accomplish it by sitting here. I want to create something that will be in tabloids and magazines from the north, to the south poles of the earth. Something that I can finally get recognized for. So, as you can see, my maps are all deleted. This is my goodbye.
(Hunter, my parts of Hostage Situation mod will be hosted. I'll contact you in a week or so.)