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Sorry to hear man, these things are tough to deal with.

On the bright side, this is a good (albeit tough) opportunity to re-think where you want to end up career-wise. Your struggles show that the field might not have been something you would've enjoyed working in after all. Adjusting your course in life now might save you from years of unfulfilling work in the long term.

If you're considering a career in gamedev and need help/feedback on your CV or portfolio, give me a shout.

That's why I'm waiting for PowerSource.

Source is pretty handy sometimes. In GoldSRC and Xash, your map editor would have to be restarted if you made a change to your WAD (like putting a new texture).
Hammer 4 would just load that new VTF+VMT on demand.
It's one of those handy little things.

Source also has improved limits compared to GoldSRC, and you can do interesting stuff with it.

The only problem being that Hammer 4 can crash sometimes. That's the only problem I've had with it. Random crashes out of nowhere, it exits without a warning. Thank goodness we have the backup files.

Well, he doesn't need a huge open world (the world will be hub-based) so Source/Berserk are the best options so far.
Wouldn't recommend Xash though, because the mod can be left unnoticed on such an engine.

CryEngine would require a decent amount of learning. :/
Trust me, when I used CE1 for the first time, it took me around 6 months to get used to it. But that's why it now listens to me like I'm its master. >:)

Any latter CryEngine is also nice, and the graphics are as you make them. Far Cry 1, and the Crysis series were made on CryEngine (FC1 used CE1, Crysis used CE2, and Crysis 2 and 3 used CE3, I think).How would you do that in GoldSRC? XD

The entity scripting here isn't that hard, either:But this is just CryEngine 1, so I'm sure that the latter ones are better.
Also:I can't stop laughing at this one...

Now, Source is really nice, actually. It's basically GoldSRC 2.0. And I guess you could make the graphics acceptable enough, if you make good assets for it. It's cool. :^)

Unreal Engine 4... I can't say anything about that. I don't know anything about it.

The berserk option would be OK, but I heard that Xash3D has a few legal holes there and there.

And idTech engines... can't say anything about that, other than its lack of popularity (and maybe a lack of documentation, too, but I'm not sure).

It depends on the project and the features. I won't tell you which one to choose, though. But Source seems like a good choice, in my opinion.

Berserk option/Source are the best choices IMO. You can make some of the locations for vanilla GoldSrc, create the assests you need, then test them in-game. And then, when Solokiller finishes and releases PowerSource you will be able to transfer all your work to that engine.
Or you can switch to Source and make a Dark Messiah of Might and Magic 2.0. But I can't help you with that because I'm unfamiliar with Source features and workflow as well.

Sorry to hear it, and good luck.

Anyway, what could we talk about now?
No-one has made a comment on my brother adopting my laptop and not letting me use it. Maybe none of you have read the entire journal. Man...

I'm sorry it didn't work out as planned bro, but new avenues (such as transferring, as you said) can always give you new insights into things you haven't considered before too perhaps?

Not when it's junior honours unfortunately

Great work.

+ Textures are scaled down for more precise shadows.

+ Clever usage of models.

+ Water doesn't just have a custom texture, it's also animated!

+/- You get MP5, Shotgun and some other weapons when you respawn.

- Some clipping issues. For example the trims aren't passable.

- Every time you shoot a model it bleeds. Use cycler_sprite instead.

- While underwater, everything outside becomes black.

A very good map. If not the issues I mentioned above, the map would be just perfect!

Don't you get to try again?

Yeah, I'll only buy that 1050 (either Ti or non-Ti) if the RX 460 runs out of stock here. P.S. 2 more days 'till my auntie and her family arrive.

I did. Not that all this hardware stuff is interesting for me though.

Either nobody read this or nobody has understood what I was talking about. :/

I know that sledge has an option where you can import .obj files - i'm not sure about J.A.C.K..

Try creating basic brushwork first though because sometimes the import process can leave you with loads of brushes that probably won't play nicely with the engine - it might leave a sour taste in your mouth if you're a beginner.

Also check out the forums; journals aren't meant for help questions really.

@Kachito
Are you insane?
I don't want to play the newer titles. No, no, no, no, no and NO! Because they aren't interesting to me, except GTA V, Crysis series, Battlefield 3 (not 4) and... if it ever happens: Half-Life 3. Just screw anything else made after 2013. (And yes, I consider games released in 2013 as "recent", while games released this year are the "newest")

I'm seriously fine with gaming at the lowest resolution at lowest settings in newer games as long as I can run the older ones at medium-to-high settings at 1440x900. You just don't understand what I need, nobody will.

And for all the glory, find a Fujitsu laptop from 2007 or 2008 and try working on any of your projects on it. Just dare to try (unless it's in Word, Excel, PowerPoint etc. It will do an acceptable job in that case).

You should also realise that it took it ages to compile the DLLs in the Half-Life 2 SDK. And the HL1 SDK's DLLs usually take around 20 minutes to compile. Seriously, wtf. Never recommend me a console.
I am not a gamer as much as you think, since 90% of my hours of CS 1.6 were spent in playtesting my maps. And this laptop is probably on the edge of its life. I'll have to buy a new HDD soon.

And its specs are a joke:
Intel Core 2 Duo T7500 at 2.2GHz
Intel GMA 965
2GB of DDR2 RAM
160GB HDD
32-bit Windows 7 Ultimate

It's obvious that I need not just an upgrade, but a total replacement.

And, lastly, some of you noticed that the RX 460 is in the part list even though I was told to get the GTX 1050 Ti. Even if buying the RX 460 ends up being a mistake, well... let me give an example:

To be honest, buying the Samsung Galaxy Grand Prime turned out to be a mistake (because it only supported 2 simultaneous touches and it didn't have that much space).

I was still overly satisfied with it, because it was FAR BETTER in any way compared to my ancient Samsung Galaxy 3 (not S3) which had a 667MHz processor and just 256MB of RAM, and its Android version was 2.2. Today, it can't browse the Internet any more. Also, all the pictures you saw in this journal were taken with that phone. At least the camera was somewhat OK. xd

And I'm using the "little mistake" right now to post this comment and it's just working too well that I don't even care if it supports only 2 touches at once (see, Splashtop GamePad THD requires you to use 3 fingers to access the configurations, lol). It has served me way better than my old phone has, and that's pretty much why I'm happy with it.

The same thing is going to happen with the RX 460. It's far better than the Intel GMA 965. Even though I'll be a little bit disappointed with it sometimes, I will remember that I used to have bottom-end hardware, and the prices could've been worse. So I'll still end up being overly satisfied with it. Investing another 100KM (50€) for the GTX 1050 Ti is just over my budget, so I'll not do that.

Dude glad you're still working on it, so persistent!

Dude sick!!!

@Kachito

I don't think it's comfortable enough to create content on such a laptop. What if he wants to create stuff for UE4? And you probably know how long it takes for him to compile maps, even at fast VIS.
So for him even a "budget' PC is more than enough.

Instead of going for a budget "gaming" pc, why don't you get one of the newer consoles that are about to hit the market? You'll be able to play any of the new titles, and most of the pc games from last and upcoming years are usually ported; they even have backwards compatibility.
You'll still have the laptop for content creation, dev, apps, etc...

But the game which I really liked was Counter-Strike: Condition-Zero: Deleted Scenes (wow, what a long name):Yes, we're literally countering the strike in that one. xD
(and I found a good use for FRAPS on my laptop :3)

Duke Nukem 3D is in my opinion the game with best atmosphere, ever.
If they were to release as good of an modern engine, with RoR ability,
and the same style with additional goodness it would be the game of the year easily.

@Urby: I actually have pictures of me playing DN3D on my Pentium 2 when I was 9 or 10. Man I can't get those feelings back... there was a unique taste in that strafing while using the shotgun to kill those monsters and battle the octobrains underwater.

Ja, das ist gut spiel. xd
(sorry for my broken German, I tried)

I like Quake 2.It's the oldest game I've ever completed, lol.

Also:My old PC had a 400W PSU.
If I remember well, it was bought in 2009, so that's not too low for its time. xd

Nichts davon ist besser als Wolfenstein 3D

Lemme just spill some of Duke's BLOOD

Let's get serious for a moment. Doom was OK, but it aint got shit on Duke Nukem 3DSincerely,
Urby (Not a fan of DOOM and a major fan of DN3D)

"But hey, now I've got friends on Steam. Sometimes I play Synergy with a guy from Russia and another guy from Romania."

Lucky. My only friends on steam (my classmates) play CS:GO, which I don't have.
Waiting for June 22nd.

Oh, so you aren't a true DooM fan? XD

nah im just making jokes!

As I had said, I'm not a true fan of DooM. So it doesn't make a difference to me.

GZDoom?

Only true fans play Doom on shareware version or floppy disk/CD ROM version

(NB I only have Final Doom 95 on CD ROM (not original CD either) and not original shareware either but I'd like to think I'm an exception to my own rule, or a fraud. Or both. you decide )

@Striker

Thank you.
Now that he's 7, he drifted away from the good games, sadly. He doesn't want to play Half-Life, Counter-Strike, DooM, Quake etc. but he just wants to Roblox and sometimes Minecraft. It's kind of unfortunate that he doesn't want to play the maps I've made.

When I was making mp_verycold (a map for Far Cry 1, for a mapping contest at GameBanana), I actually paid him real money just to playtest the map with me.
We've had some fun, but it wasn't worth the money...

But hey, now I've got friends on Steam. Sometimes I play Synergy with a guy from Russia and another guy from Romania.
I've also hosted a playtesting session of de_kobbl, which was super fun by the way. If there's something my brother and I could enjoy together (in video games), that would probably be... Payday 2. Of course, my laptop won't be able to run it, so I'll have to wait until I get my new PC built.

Also, @Stojke...
Store #1
Store #2
Store #3
I think I'm pretty safe so far.
My father also said that he's OK with buying parts online from those 3, which surprised me a lot.

Man that's so nice having a little brother to play with.

Looks great, but I don't play any tabletop games. When I get paid this month I'll do a rewardless donation. In the meantime I've passed the link onto my tabletop friends.
Brilliant job with the video.

@DiscoStu
Well... I was absent in the photo, but still, my brother and I were about to play it. I.m.o. the photo is just better without me.

@Windawz
If I remember well, my brother and I used to play on Zandronum back in those days. Now we use GZDoom.

@Stojke
I didn't say that the price will be that low. But I'll definitely find those parts somewhere, because my 3 years of research weren't for nothing.
I think I'll find the parts in I.T. shops in Sarajevo.

I am very curious as to where will you find those components at such a price in BiH.

Ooooooh Looks really neat sir!1~

Looks lovely!

"This is us playing [...]"
There's no us in the picture, only your brother

What do I need the S.M.A.R.T. data for?

Does anybody have any particular suggestion for choosing a new drive? anything I should have? Anything I should avoid?

I once tried to work on my PC using my USB-gamepad. Well, I had to use XPadder to make it work properly though.

Also, your brother played a source-port I guess?

@NineTnine
I play DooM with a keyboard and mouse. But hey, I guess that's much better than what my brother now prefers: a gamepad. And I've never said I was a true fan of DooM. I'm not a true fan of anything, just myself.

He betrayed me. I thought he will remain a loyal PC gamer, but it looks like he'd be more comfortable around the console gamers' controls.

I do. The best part of the game is level design anyway, so you can play it as you wish.
Along with Q1, for me Doom 1 has the best level design ever. Can't say that about Doom 2 though.

who plays Doom with a mouse? Only true fans play it old school style with the arrow keys