Wow, that's a real piece of shit rig you got there.
My guess is your computer is far too crap to run Source.
I dislike anyone that hides behind a mask, figure out who you are and enjoy it.For your first bit: who cares, its their life for crying out loud. As for the second bit: who cares??!
Quick question: Why do some goths make their faces white and eyes/lips black??