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Striker2 weeks ago2018-12-31 01:02:24 UTC 2 comments
I just want to leave some thoughts here, as 2018 comes to an end.

tl;dr: I probably have to work on my people skills and socialize more. I visited Madrid. I tried and successfully ate Surstromming without puking. Changed my phone. I'm working on a personal project involving Raspberry Pi and ESP8266, collecting sensor data. I look forward to 2019 and hope to make most out of it.

For me it's been a fuzzy year. Can't say I'm extremely happy with my progress as a whole. Yeah, I did some progress in some areas, mainly in my job since it's eating 8-10 hours a day when counting the commute and morning routine. But not enough to be satisfied personally. I keep failing at making a self-learning schedule (in my mind I said that I have to read at least 10 programming books to get to the next level). Been through a breakup, probably my fault. Been searching for someone ever since, but probably I don't put that much effort into it, it's kinda hard for me to meet new people outside of some common goals/events. The workplace is a dead-end for such things, and even if it wasn't... I feel I would violate so many workplace ethics I would just crawl back in my carapace. I'm just scared of trying something new (like meetup.org style events, or a dance class...). I just feel like an impostor/weird person - although in my soul I'd really like to try.
I failed to deliver an outside-of-work project on time. A combination of misunderstandings and.. I would say laziness but I'm certainly not a lazy person when I have passion for things. I think it's a loss of interest. Been forcing myself ever since to do some damn thing about that.
I saw some episodes of "Master of none". Some stuff from there hits home.

On the bright side, I got to visit Madrid. That's a really big city for what I'm used with. The Buen Retiro park is really nice. I visited some museums, notably the Thyssen. But what struck me was the exhibition at the CentroCentro from Plaza Cibeles. The one I had the chance to see had the theme of transportation. My first impression was that this was a meaningless walk-through random placed pieces/doodads, but then I understood that it was meant to excite your mind. It's a place of inspiration.
I also had the chance to see the nightlife a bit. Honestly, I think I'm just not build for that. If not with a bigger group of friends, I find it a bit degrading/sad because my focus keeps turning to observing what's around. I've seen some teens puking and what not. I don't know, probably I felt like a country boy and intimidated :)). There was this bar we stumbled into, the bartender owned the place and was a life-long fan of The Ramones. The bar was red-painted and was absolutely full of stickers/badges/photos/collectibles you name it. The music was blasting from an old massive speaker hanging from the ceiling, I remember it had a distinct lo-fi tonality. The 50-60 year old looking bartender had long black hair, a black sleeveless jeans jacket and after serving people he was standing there, looking towards nothing, having that thousand mile stare.... probably he has seen a lot of shit.
I think I just like cozy restaurants/bars a lot more.

I was forced to change my phone - my old one (an S4) started to stutter a lot and randomly power off even after changing the battery. I've waited again enough time for this to be a notable improvement. It's a One Plus 6. I'm really satisfied with it, I've even ordered a vinyl cover from dbrand.

I've finally managed, with the help of a friend who went to Sweden, to get my hands on a can of Surstromming. If this old journal managed to provoke unpleasant sensations to some of you (especially Archie from older discussions), this will totally disgust you. But I can't help it, I was just too damn curious. Surprisingly, I didn't vomit. But the smell... god damn. Do you know the smell of saurkraut? Do you know the smell of moist fermented manure? Do you know the smell of your feet and socks after a sweaty day in a pair of bad-quality sneakers? Add those together and that's the smell of surstromming. Not yet the full power of a cadaver smell, but enough to eradicate your nose. I managed to eat it like they do it traditionally ("Pita" + some cream spread, onions and some other stuff). I realized my regret after eating it though. The pungent fumes were coming back from my stomach, warm and moist, through my nose. Not long after eating this outside me and some friends hoped in a taxi and I then realized suddenly that if those fumes accidentally come through my mouth/nose again there was not fucking way I could explain to that man why we smell like that. I don't know if Scandinavian people eat this on a regular basis but man... it's a sheer what-the-fuck experience.

Finally, I've started working a personal project with Raspberry Pi and ESP8266. In an older journal I was sharing about trying Arch Linux. Some skills/commands from there have proven useful.

I don't know man. As life goes on I kinda feel these new pressures as I see some people around me getting married, while I have other objectives. It feels like such a big ladder to climb to get to have a stable relationship. Well, until then, I think I'm at that point where life is just at the perfect difficulty spot: about 10%-20% harder than I'd like it to be, allowing me to get better if I put the effort in.
Maybe I just have high expectations...

I'm sorry for the wall of text. I wish the regulars here, but also the newcomers, a happy and prosperous 2019! Let's make the most out of it.
Striker3 months ago2018-09-24 16:53:32 UTC 5 comments
It's basically a small fridge.
What is your latest weird purchase?

[EDIT] It's been on for more than half an hour an nothing really happened, then all of a sudden I hear a small dripping sound and I'm like "oooohhh your first poop!" pats the dehumidifier
[EDIT2] If anyone expected an /r/jokes style post, I'm sorry, but I'm kinda dried-up on jokes right now.
Striker9 months ago2018-04-15 07:48:26 UTC 14 comments
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He is kicked out of the idyllic multi-potentiality land and forced by the unmerciful laws of physics to evolve towards a chosen essence.
All voices scream: you've tasted existence, now you must become, or else!

He'd rather have a third option... though life is interesting and solving the problems of becoming life-giving and life-enhancing seems an impossible yet achievable task. And it waters his mouth and makes him enthusiastic.
Striker10 months ago2018-03-01 20:46:26 UTC 7 comments
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From Romania, with love.
Striker1 year ago2017-05-17 18:38:56 UTC 5 comments
I am the excited owner of a Mazda 3 hatchback, 2006 model.
No seriously, my mouth is stuck in smiling mode.
Striker1 year ago2017-03-22 10:13:11 UTC 7 comments
Hammer, although having a spartanic interface, is still a role model for other level editors through its common sense. And this, after almost 20 years from its conception.

2016 GDC talk
Striker1 year ago2017-03-10 08:57:01 UTC 5 comments
It's gonna make the resonance cascade a real thing. I guarantee it.
The 10 pettaWatt laser facility.
Striker2 years ago2016-10-27 18:04:40 UTC 5 comments
I tried Oculus Rift and HTC Vive in Project Cars and Hover Junkers.
AMA
Striker2 years ago2016-09-24 12:45:25 UTC 4 comments
Have you guys ever dreamed within a dream?

It happened to me this past night. I dreamed that I was piloting a helicopter, then I woke up explaining to someone what an odd dream I had, then I woke up.
This is, I believe, the second time that it occurred to me.

Also as a diverse fact, have you tried googling for top american inventors? Yeah, do that :)).
Striker2 years ago2016-08-30 16:48:18 UTC 6 comments
Striker2 years ago2016-08-20 15:10:44 UTC 3 comments
I bought a mountain-bike.
Striker2 years ago2016-05-07 20:06:49 UTC 2 comments
What a great year this will continue to be! ... and indeed was already! Last month I proved myself I can handle a 30km bike marathon with an almost 800m altitude gain. As a beginner, this was one of my most intense mind-over-body experience I ever endured. I finished it in 2 hours and 15 minutes, while the advanced guys finished it under 1:30. I'm now seriously considering investing some money in a good bike 'till the next year( but good bikes are very expensive).

Several challenges lay before me still, and uncertainties. Life is so fucking weird at this point. I have some difficult exams I'll have to pass to finish college, and then explore my options for the future. It's quite chilling to realize each passing birthday that your future options and opportunities "pool" shrinks.

This year will also be great from a technological standpoint. I'll be very Zen while fishing at Kaby Lake in early mornings, watching the Polaris star and philosophizing about Pascal's wager. Man, one can't wait for October as much as I do!

God help me I have so many thoughts, I don't know how to beat my fears and manage every anxiety so I can experience more of this life...
Striker2 years ago2016-04-15 13:24:24 UTC 9 comments
I have left the palindromic age.

Need to do a lot of shit this year.

[EDIT] Got a pair of Sennheiser CX 300-ii earbuds from a friend, my last earbuds were "Canyon" and lasted my 4 years, but holy shit are these new ones better!
Striker3 years ago2016-01-06 16:09:09 UTC 7 comments
I played with some friends Exploding Kittens. This game is awesomely frustrating. But hey, at least I rubbed the belly of a pig-a-corn.

Do you guys know of any cool boardgames? What do you say about Pandemic?
Striker3 years ago2015-12-05 22:32:18 UTC 1 comment
3000 days.

TL;DR: been here for 8 years. My deep thanks to the community. Youtube link to an unfinished project at the bottom of the journal

Three thousand. This is an interesting, if not cool number that probably make most of the geeks think of the future. How will life be in the year 3000? It's difficult to imagine, but it's fun to speculate. Flying cars, teleportation? Outdated concepts by that time. Are we going to be merely some spheres of energy having fun by shaping matter, that move through the universe in the ultimate quest of solving the last philosophical questions? Are we going to meet with other intelligent beings by that time, or, why not, ascend on a higher spiritual path and maybe discover new realms?

I don't know. But it's not about 3000 years, it's about 3000 days. I've been here for that amount of time and I thought it would be nice to present my respects to the community. It's a community that tolerated me in my internet youth and I'm grateful for that. People have very little patience in real life these days, much less in a virtual space. Although maybe it's not fair to suppose that it's virtual, because electronic communication is one of the greatest inventions: expanding our electrical impulses from the brain, through an interface, to thousands of miles away. It's... mind blowing, if you think of it.

I'm ashamed that, because of my very busy schedule, I couldn't work at a mapping project I had, and neither I could make a "gift" to the community, to say so. I can only present my thanks to you, the regulars, who give this community its unique appeal that had me stay for so long. It is still the first tab in my tens of tabs opened each day, because I'm quite honestly interested of the evolution of some members around here. It's heart warming to know the origins of some members and see them where they've arrived.

It's not fair to present thanks to only the regulars I know from the top of my head, I'd surely leave some out and that wouldn't be nice. But to you, the regulars: I tip my hat to you! Please continue to come to this site and share your stories :).

The project I was talking about was started quite some months ago, in preparation for this event. But college started and... well, those of you who went to college know what this means. I also work now as a programmer, so I have only about 2-3 hours of free time per day.
It was supposed to be an amalgamation of very intense and dynamic moments, as some of you know I hate "static" maps. It was supposed to be... a culmination of my restless mind in summer nights. Yeah this sounds weird :)).
Anyway, enough with the talk, this was the starting area:
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HL2 mapping project
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This can become a long term project where I could co-opt some members and expand it into a short mod. But I don't know for now. Most of my projects start by having an idea pop in my mind when having a shower, and idea that grows and expands into a couple of scenes that I rehearse repeatedly in my mind until I can't stand if I don't start implementing it. So, in conclusion, I don't have a real story. Do not consider this post a team project announcement, I'd be very clear if it was so.

Sorry for the long post ^^.