Journals

UrbaNebula7 years ago2012-05-31 11:02:21 UTC 13 comments
Ugh... clients.

From an email received today:"I can't give you an example of what I want at the moment but I need this up and running ASAP as I am in the middle of a major presentation tomorrow."

...I don't even know where to start with that sentence. However, I am kind of impressed that he is currently in the middle of something that hasn't happened yet.
UrbaNebula7 years ago2012-05-26 12:17:03 UTC 6 comments
So, I played through Gut Reaction again after about 10 years or so. Pretty old mod for Half-Life and a classic in my opinion.

Rather than uploading the entire thing I made a sort of highlights reel containing only the entertaining parts of my play through. (I listen to feedback sometimes :P )

Clickity-Click
UrbaNebula7 years ago2012-05-21 09:01:11 UTC 16 comments
Why I don't sleep much.

I work in Web Design in an office based in Shrewsbury. The days are your average 9am - 5pm (with an extra 30 minutes tacked on for some reason). Now, Shrewsbury is about an hours drive from my house, with another 15 minutes walk to the nearest free parking. This means that in order to get to work on time the latest I can leave my house is 7:45, which means in order to get up, get dressed, have breakfast and make lunch I need to be out of bed by 7:10.

In the evenings after work I will get back home at around 6:45pm - 7pm. I will then need to have dinner, wash up afterwards, spend some time with the wife etc. I usually get time to myself from 9 or 10pm. So basically, if I was to turn in at midnight, I only get 2 or 3 hours to myself for gaming or mapping or browsing the net. Basically, it's not enough.

So I don't sleep, and at weekends I sleep even less to make the most of my time off. Usually turning it at 4am Saturday morning and getting up at 6am, then turning in again at 4am Sunday morning and sleeping until 9 or 10.

...I'm tired.
UrbaNebula7 years ago2012-05-16 19:23:31 UTC 7 comments
Even if you're not a fan of Zero Punctuation, you should definitely skip to to 5:35 in this one if you're a fan of Half-Life. :D

Enjoy
UrbaNebula7 years ago2012-05-11 09:34:27 UTC 4 comments
Ok, new dream. Certainly more disturbing that what I'm used to.

I've got a new job, on a production line, skinning live cats. Now now, don't jump for the "sick fuck" responses just yet. The cats were fine. Underneath their fur and skin, they had more fur and skin. It was as though cats were meant to shed their skins from time to time, but the process just would not occur naturally. The thing is, the cats fur was identical underneath, same colours, pattern etc.

I go home and decide that I might as well skin my cat while I'm at it.

I run a Stanley knife down the side of my cat, peel away the top skin, but the fur underneath is black. The black cat, kicks and thrashes out of the outer skin and scurries to the other end of the room, then sits in the corner and hisses at me.

Then I woke up...

I can only assume that this means my cat is a spy.
UrbaNebula7 years ago2012-05-08 09:31:34 UTC 12 comments
I had a very vivid dream last night. Well 2 actually. In my first dream I was having to go away on business for a month, to the other end of the country. The thing is, I had to leave my house in the early hours of the morning so my wife was fast asleep. I kissed her on the forehead and left my house, knowing I wouldn't see it again for some time. I felt genuinely emotional and was so relieved when I woke myself up at 4am. :P

The second dream happened between then and when my alarm went off at 6:30am. I was in my house again, during a torrential downpour and there was a leak in the ceiling. I went upstairs to check it and the entire upper floor was sodden, the carpet cold and full of water. Same with the bed. The place was a mess.

I looked up both of these things online this morning. The first dream apparently symbolises that my life is changing, moving forwards. Not reluctance to do so, just an awareness that change is coming.

The second one tickled me a little:

"To see a leak in your dream symbolizes loss, disappointments, frustrations and distress. You are wasting your energy on fruitless endeavors."

Then I went to work.
UrbaNebula7 years ago2012-05-07 02:23:48 UTC 7 comments
I don't sleep. I'm sure I've mentioned this before. I usually get 4 hours sleep a night during the weekend, 6 or less during the week.

We have a 3 day weekend this week thanks to May day (No idea what the actual occasion is but an extra day off is aces in my book). Anyway, I decided last night to get an early night. Got about 10 hours sleep in total. Then I woke up.

"GUARGH!!! WHAT THE F-"

I had the worst migraine I've ever had in my life. If you've ever experienced waking up with a headache, you know it sucks. However, take that pain, times it by 3 and add severe nausea. Whoo. Long story short, everything I put in, including painkillers, came flying back out at high speed.

Basically lost a day of my three day weekend while I slept it off. Woke up around 8pm in the end. So I managed to eat something, stayed up with the wife until she went to bed at midnight. It is now 4:30AM and I have been working on The Core since then. Not tired at all now having slept most of the day.

Just thought I'd share. :D
UrbaNebula7 years ago2012-05-04 07:53:53 UTC 18 comments
The quickest way to lose your passion for something is to make a career out of it. That's my opinion anyway.

I used to mess around with HTML and CSS from time to time and I used to genuinely enjoy it. The thing is, that was the occasional 3 hour session at most. When it comes down to "You WILL do this between 9am and 5:30pm!" it is a totally different story.

I think that is why I wouldn't go into game design full time. I usually map for a couple of hours at a time and I enjoy it. If I was told to build levels for 9 hours straight, I would rapidly get fed up with the processes involved and the quality of the work would suffer. Job security is another issue of course. If I make a bad website I spend a few hours fixing it up. If you make a bad game, you stop making games. :P

Another factor about doing design as a hobby is that if you're not sure how to approach a problem or if you simply get tired of working on a project, you can have a break, maybe leave it for a day or 2 and come back to it. At work, I have the option to say "I don't know what to do with this" but all that happens is the site moves down the list 1 place and I am given ANOTHER site to work on. It's draining. In the end of course, you HAVE to come back to the project within a reasonable amount of time or the client gets pissed off.

urgh...

Sorry for the wall of text.
UrbaNebula7 years ago2012-04-30 22:05:39 UTC 14 comments
I just posted this on the BMS forum, but I think it's worth bringing up.

What is with the Gordon Freeman vs. Adrian Shephard debates. People who say they are a fan of Shephard's character and would like to see him return... what!? What fucking character? He's a mute protagonist, just like freeman. The only thing that differentiates the 2 in game is their gloves.

Ugh... people!
UrbaNebula7 years ago2012-04-25 19:23:19 UTC 18 comments
Hi TWHL. I'm having a bath right now. Yeah. You're reading the insane typings of a nude guy. Like, totally nude. Modern technology at it's finest, eh?
UrbaNebula7 years ago2012-04-21 21:00:56 UTC 4 comments
Anyone tried out the Sniper Elite V2 demo yet? The games promotion has been focused on the brutal kill cams you get for good shots. Full anatomical modelling of enemies combined with realistic bullet simulation etc.

Anyway, here's me playing through the demo with a commentary of my thoughts over the job, in case you haven't tried it or even heard of it yet.

I've tried to keep it interesting and skipped some of the wandering around parts.
UrbaNebula7 years ago2012-04-19 11:55:34 UTC 10 comments
I like making videos, mostly blogs on the main snc channel and goofing around in games on the games channel.

I'm aware however that my blogs consist of me moaning about life which few people would be interested in. I'll be doing another one tonight but I'm considering piling in comedy stuff wherever I can.

I read somewhere that if you need to ask how to make a good video then you're not doing it right, which I fully understand. However, from a vlog point of view, what WOULD you guys like to watch? Do you even like vlogs or should I try and focus more on video game related stuff?

Anyway, any responses before around 7pm GMT will be greatly appreciated and will probably be mentioned in the video tonight... should you watch it I mean... :|
UrbaNebula7 years ago2012-04-17 06:29:34 UTC 8 comments
You know what's not good for headaches and nausea? Staring at code on a 21" screen for 9 hours... I'm staying in bed today. Phone is giving me a headache now too.
UrbaNebula7 years ago2012-04-16 11:42:05 UTC 11 comments
Why do I do this to myself?

I woke up this morning, quite obviously ill. I got up, forced down some breakfast, drove the hour long trip to work and sat here in front of a screen all morning. Just forced down some more food for lunch and I am feeling considerably worse.

:(
UrbaNebula7 years ago2012-04-12 09:13:48 UTC 7 comments
Sweet Jesus!

Working away on a website at work when suddenly the office is filled with deafeningly loud drumming. Then horns. "WHAT THE FFFFUUUU-!!?"

You see, my office is located in the town square, where they tend to hold events. I checked a local news site.

"Thu 12th Apr - Musical Performance - 11:00am - 2:00pm - Musicial Performance by West Milford Highlander American Marching Band"

wait... 11:00am - 2:00pm!?!

WHAT!!!?

ARGH! CANNOT HEAR MYSELF THINK! (Quite hilarious though to see a colleague trying to explain this to his client who is on the phone right now.)