Commented 6 years ago2013-07-27 22:53:58 UTC in journal: #8208 Comment #38716
Officially old.

Its a secret message anagram... Icy Doll of Fail.
Commented 6 years ago2013-07-17 00:43:50 UTC in journal: #8200 Comment #42194
That means so much to me, thank you.
Let me know if you want a role in SMJ, I have so many spots still available.
Commented 6 years ago2013-07-16 21:27:02 UTC in journal: #8200 Comment #42193
I would love to work for a studio or company, its means at least some job security.

Sadly, in key points of my career development, things were missed. Being a high-tech based industry, I didn't have a computer that could run Source for a loooong time, or I couldn't get the tools everyone was learning like Zbrush. Simply I couldn't keep up with what I had at the time and it's set me back so much to the point where I'm nearly undesirable. I'm making a game in hopes that it would simply float and people enjoy it. I would like to make money, but seriously it features real people. All of whom I have not acquired photo-release forms from and I have no clue what legal bounds I have either selling the game in anyway, or if it can even be sold.

Even then, I see a lot of super successful titles being campaigned on kickstarter or similar. I tried and my campaign flopped for semi-political reasons. I didn't make a dime. I haven't gotten donations in forever and it seems like no one is even paying attention to it, or I don't see it or something. Feels like I have no support but I just keep working on it anyway.
Commented 6 years ago2013-07-16 02:08:23 UTC in journal: #8200 Comment #42192
Life has been not fun lately. >_>
Commented 6 years ago2013-07-13 12:42:48 UTC in journal: #8198 Comment #42162
I think it should be at least known about. But if you're that young, just use condoms and have a good time.

I'm still considered young for this, but given circumstances, I'm old enough.
Commented 6 years ago2013-07-11 17:37:23 UTC in journal: #8198 Comment #42161
TWHL has sorta been a home away from home. Some people have seen me from being new to mapping, through college, and until now. You guys are like family so I feel confident to post this kind of stuff here.
Commented 6 years ago2013-07-10 22:56:47 UTC in journal: #8198 Comment #42160
Yeah... it isn't mentioned that if we wanted kids, we would gladly adopt one.
Commented 6 years ago2013-07-10 20:55:13 UTC in journal: #8198 Comment #42159
Hey Guys, It's Lyssa, I thought I would Field a few of these questions.

Soup Miner- I Cannot take the Birth control Pill Due to the fact that I am intolerant to non biological hormones, AKA the Pill sends me off the deep end. That was one of the reasons I got the IUD when I was 21 in the first place. My medications (that I was taking back then) interfered with the effectiveness of the pill, so I stopped taking it, and when I tried to start again, it went badly, so the IUD was the Birth Control of Choice.

Striker- Trust me, he DOES do that. And I do the same to him. (this is probably TMI but we are past that I think)
If you are with a Girlfriend, would you REALLY not want to have sex again, like ever after having free roam for 4 years?
We are engaged to be married..that's a LONG time to go without sex, and I am paranoid enough that I won't let him near me with anything that can make babies unless there is some sort of fail safe.
As for testosterone levels, they should not be effected as not all testosterone is produced in the testes, some is also produced in the adrenal glands. The only thing he would lose would be his swimmers. He would still have a normal ejaculate, just sans swimmers.

Stojke- 26 is too young? I am 28. What would you consider "old Enough" exactly?
I mean I understand the doctors fighting me when I was 21, but I will be 30 in 2 years. So....yeah.

2muchvideogames- I personally have never wanted children due to the really shitty medical genetics I have been given. I don't think you were around when I had the Brain Surgery, but my Father has a small mass in the opposite side of the head (Mine was vascular not a "mass" but for lack of a better word) And That it is most likely that even though the AVM I had only occurs in 1% of the population, there is a chance our child could have one as well. I also have other genetic illnesses that are VERY difficult to deal with due to the fact that genetic illnesses is harder to treat with medicine that say just a chemically related illness. Not to mention I am intolerant to over 50 CATEGORIES of medications (we estimate 500 actual medicines in all) and that just sucks. My Father has the same thing, so the chance of a child getting my genetic grab bag are high
Aside from that I am also Phobic of pregnancy. The movie Alien comes to mind.
Rim personally just doesn't want children. He feels his life is fulfilled enough and he just doesn't feel his life would be better of for having kids then it is now. If that makes sense.
Kids aren't for everyone you know?

I just wanted to say that this is really hard for Rim. He is getting a LOT of flack about this. We aren't exactly sure why. I mean hell my mother is trying to subject me to a dangerous surgery (another one) instead of supporting us in this. Rim came here for the support of friends that have always been there for him. And he really does appreciate the support. Hell he still thinks Fondly on the Bazooka you all made him after the Kidney stone issues.
So while I don't mind answering these questions as they are valid, I just wanted to say that he really does value your support.

Hope that clears it all up.
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Commented 6 years ago2013-06-29 13:22:03 UTC in journal: #8194 Comment #42151
They let me film at the gala event but they placed me back behind the photographers which they all kept fucking up my shot. This one British lady was super bad because she just leaned right before my lens like I wasn't even there and blocked the view for a dozen other people also recording the show. If she does it tonight, I do have a nifty tripod that is sturdy enough to double as an extendable baton. Either way, it was cool because they announced me all awesome and shit. Even though anyone can film the main show, they asked me to form the DVD. So everyone who filmed is also a potential alternate camera angle if they volunteer their videos. Most will I think, I know many of them and could ask. My battery ran out half way through so I was scrambling to grab footage on my backups. The show tonight is twice as long to that worries me so I have a long day of unloading and recharging since I can't do much else. If that bitch blocks my shot again tonight, she's getting bludgeoned.
Commented 6 years ago2013-06-28 13:05:27 UTC in journal: #8191 Comment #62517
Can't be together, too perfect? seriously? That's as shitty of a reason as "you're not the one."

If you were a couple, you'd work it out somehow. Start doing some minor forgivable fuck ups ;] If you let her go with that as the reason, thats bullshit and you can't let that slide if you really like her. You can't tell a woman you care about her, YOU HAVE TO SHOW HER! and it doesn't need to be grandiose like in the movies, though if you can pull something off like that, go for it. Women love movies.

Some girls like assholes. They do that because something on the inside is damaged or missing. Its a loophole in feminine psychology that they want the outside situation to match their inside. Men are nearly opposite so we don't understand it, but it's safe to simply know about it. If you talk and get to know this estranged side of her, you could be able to let her know that she can be happy, and that perhaps she deserves to be happy, and give things a chance.
Commented 6 years ago2013-06-15 01:12:35 UTC in journal: #8182 Comment #65421
Computer, zoom 259, Pull out, stop, wait, track in, stop, enhance reflection, zoom, pan right, find a water droplet, zoom 80, enhance reflection, stop, rotate 170, zoom 220.

Can't see shit captain.
Commented 6 years ago2013-06-06 23:24:04 UTC in journal: #8175 Comment #42147
Not all cats lick their asses, and mine doesn't.
Commented 6 years ago2013-06-06 14:20:31 UTC in journal: #8175 Comment #42146
Cats groom other cats that they bond with, occasionally they groom people they bond with.
Commented 6 years ago2013-06-01 15:27:18 UTC in journal: #1672 Comment #50196
Commented 6 years ago2013-03-30 21:06:52 UTC in journal: #8146 Comment #61591
Laughed, a lot.
Commented 6 years ago2013-02-25 19:14:02 UTC in journal: #8123 Comment #62482
Every 5 levels you get twice the skill points.
Commented 6 years ago2013-02-24 06:22:34 UTC in vault item: kzgr_timeportals Comment #20264
Aw thanks for finding my lost sky texture. I'll be taking this back now.

Also, how the fuck? that is all.
Commented 6 years ago2013-02-16 01:50:57 UTC in journal: #8113 Comment #65354
Got another one for ya.

A princess falls in love with a prince from another kingdom but she can't have him because she can't walk. She undergoes surgery to get her legs and goes to him only to discover that he's married another girl. In a deep and dark despair, she cuts her legs off and dies floating in the ocean.

I shall call it...

The Little Mermaid.
Commented 6 years ago2013-02-15 02:55:19 UTC in journal: #8113 Comment #65353
I got a great idea too.

A man's wife and children are brutally murdered except for one child that later gets kidnapped. The man then gets the help of a mentally handicapped woman to find his son while his son teams up with a one-armed man, a schizophrenic, and a fat kid to escape his jail cell.

I shall call it...

Finding Nemo.
Commented 6 years ago2013-02-14 03:14:51 UTC in journal: #8108 Comment #49433
Nice poem; Rhyming sucked.
Commented 6 years ago2013-02-12 15:43:15 UTC in journal: #8109 Comment #67242
I do all of my music in FL. if you have any questions, feel free to ask and I will try my best to answer.
Commented 6 years ago2013-01-31 06:50:47 UTC in journal: #8102 Comment #65348
No, wait...

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Commented 6 years ago2012-12-30 04:21:55 UTC in journal: #8074 Comment #65284
Both parties choose their actions poorly. It happens. Though the justice elements in the story don't seem right with the guilt not being punished. Thus causing vigilantism in the common society since they no longer feel safe or can trust the justice system.
Commented 6 years ago2012-12-18 04:34:20 UTC in journal: #8058 Comment #61021
Ellen McLain needed a job I suppose.
Commented 7 years ago2012-12-07 20:18:01 UTC in journal: #8047 Comment #58188
They need to make a floating player that is simply a sizeable pop-out window with just the video in it. I know a few sites to use this and its useful.

I like the changes... then again... I'm Rimrook.
Commented 7 years ago2012-11-23 15:04:30 UTC in journal: #8034 Comment #42130
Yeah Nahmbo is 15 pounds of muscle, only 1 year old.

Thanksgiving is an American holiday where we make a big feast and be thankful for all that we have.
Commented 7 years ago2012-11-07 16:55:12 UTC in journal: #8019 Comment #44968
Obama is still president, our vaginas are safe for another 4 years!
Commented 7 years ago2012-10-04 14:04:09 UTC in journal: #7987 Comment #42110
it's 11:03 right now. I haven't done anything!
Commented 7 years ago2012-09-12 16:33:32 UTC in journal: #7964 Comment #40297
Commented 7 years ago2012-08-04 04:34:46 UTC in journal: #7921 Comment #51459
Commented 7 years ago2012-07-03 22:37:06 UTC in journal: #7870 Comment #45650
Gameplay videos. Its how I got the one comment that I ever got on ModDB for SMJ. i just made myself so very sad just now. :(
Commented 7 years ago2012-06-24 01:54:43 UTC in journal: #7853 Comment #43593
You'll be fine because you're not in america.
Commented 7 years ago2012-06-21 16:17:41 UTC in journal: #7839 Comment #42087
Ok Lyssa here, and LOL

The one gal you were worried about on the left there Dimbark? Yeah that is the studio owner from this area...and her and I don't really get along so LOL and Thank you!

Guy in the back is the Husband of another Belly dancer from The Netherlands. Tjarda Van Straten, She is actually a cool chick.

This was our "Be silly" Picture Hence why Kaleena is flipping off the camera, and the rest of the gals are acting like Idiots. TO be fair, we had all been just sitting on the floor talking for about 2 hours. It was an "experiential" Workshop, and the Teacher of the workshop, Amy, knows Rim and made him take the workshop. Amy initiated me into her troupe, so Rim is initiated by proxy.

And I am guessing we should post more pictures of Nahmbo? How about some video of a wicked chick with a 10 foot whip on fire? Anyone up for that?
Commented 7 years ago2012-06-19 01:55:18 UTC in journal: #7845 Comment #48260
he'll be making whole games by the time he's 8... then the gaming market with crash. gently.
Commented 7 years ago2012-06-14 16:34:44 UTC in journal: #7838 Comment #42067
Dimbark ruined it.

I'm surprised no one has switched our heads.
Commented 7 years ago2012-06-10 19:42:30 UTC in journal: #7832 Comment #42053

There's a button with the app's icon on it that when its pressed it launches the app.
Commented 7 years ago2012-06-10 12:43:07 UTC in journal: #7832 Comment #42052
Sorry, I thought I mentioned the program. Its Gateway's Social Network Software. It comes with the computer already installed and downloads via gateway updates.
Commented 7 years ago2012-06-08 21:09:05 UTC in journal: #7830 Comment #45626
Woot Gratz!!!!!

Let me know if you need some cg.
Commented 7 years ago2012-06-06 01:32:25 UTC in journal: #7825 Comment #45615
Your level is too high to gain experience from this website. Please travel onward to new websites to continue your quest for the ultimate power.
Commented 7 years ago2012-06-06 01:25:16 UTC in journal: #7827 Comment #58029
I took a good hit of pot once. I hated feeling numb. I feel blah often enough as is, I like my consciousness too much.

I drink so sparingly now. Even then, same principle. I'm just not into drugs because they make me feel bad.
Commented 7 years ago2012-05-09 09:13:26 UTC in journal: #7781 Comment #65120
Commented 7 years ago2012-05-07 20:41:32 UTC in journal: #7776 Comment #40292
that map looks amazing. definitely worth a look.
Commented 7 years ago2012-05-07 20:05:19 UTC in journal: #7777 Comment #66555
Commented 7 years ago2012-05-04 14:38:24 UTC in journal: #7773 Comment #43500
I disagree. I love doing the stuff I do, and to money at it is great.
Commented 7 years ago2012-05-01 14:08:22 UTC in journal: #6003 Comment #41080
I could be an ass and delete this journal ya know... I could...
Commented 7 years ago2012-05-01 00:00:00 UTC in vault item: Hotdog Vintage Map Pack Comment #32826
Architecture — 6
Texturing — 7.5
Ambience — 4
Lighting — 7.5
Gameplay — 7

Video Review:

Bottom Line:

Old stuff but its always good to see how people grow. Some of these maps are really, really good.
Commented 7 years ago2012-04-30 23:37:28 UTC in journal: #7766 Comment #43489
How to start an argument on the internet.

Step 1: Express an opinion.
Step 2: Wait.
Commented 7 years ago2012-04-29 19:01:56 UTC in vault item: CS_MINECRAFT_NPC_VILLAGE_FINAL Comment #19937
Source engine graphics at their finest. I wish I actually could play through this one. Alas no CS:S for me.