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Just felt like putting a link to my Twitter here. Might start some sort of conversation.

Meerjel01's Twitter

I am not sure who will be reading this or even care, but I felt like putting this out there. I have been a member of the community on and off since 2005, and I had my checkered history. I came back a few years ago to try and set things right, and I think I managed to mostly remedy some bad decisions and actions. To try and do right by God, and God's will for my life, and by my own conscience.

However, after I have finished the Pathos Engine, I realized I don't really have any real reason to be in the Half-Life community anymore. I am working on a video game now, not a Half-Life mod. I however still sometimes produce content, like Half-Life models, etc. I might still post that here. However, I have decided it's time I moved on. For this reason I am leaving the Half-Life modding community, hopefully on much better terms than I tried to last time. I have deleted my Discord account also, to focus more on my creative work and job. I do my best creative work in solutide anyway.

I want to say thanks to everyone who was kind to me, and thanks to the people who gave me a second/third chance. I hope people enjoyed the content I created, and will enjoy any future content I create. I doubt I will return again, but if I do, well, we'lll see how it goes. Nothing in life is certain.

And for those I've left without a real explanation, let it be this: Sometimes there's irrevocable differences between two individuals which cannot be resolved, and I might not see a future for said relation. It is not my intention to leave on a bad note. I sometimes just don't see a solution, which might be an error in me.

In the meantime, I will try and realize what God has intended for me to do with the remainder of my life.

Thank you.

Yep. Cambreaker recently accidentally gifted me Hunt Down the Freeman, and chances are, I might stream it on TWHL Discord on Christmas.It's a bit early for me to say "merry Christmas", so I'll wait a bit.

My conscious. I had an idea for a comic involving the Half-Life 1 Alpha. It's gonna be like my Marathon comic where an OC walks around in Black Mesa doing funny things and getting herself into danger. I haven't started with it yet and it might not be made.

I already have a funny parody comic and I'm usually not making fan art of popular things like Half-Life. But if someone wants to change my mind then go ahead. I can listen.

With my vast spare time from being a full-time pediatrician, president of the Rotary Club, writing two novels, I decided that I should create the website for my son's soccer team.

https://www.millikanboyssoccer.org/

Granted, they're pretty kick-ass (well, most of the times they try to kick the ball rather than asses, but they do both).

After a few years of absence, in addition to problems and turmoils, I'm finally back.

I have a lot of new stuff to show, like new maps, some photos of hobbies and... maybe some mods to unveil.

The reason I came back is because I have matured, and I realized that reserved sites, like forums and this community, are very safe. Unlike social networks such as Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, YouTube, among others...

Too much life exposure drains you. The internet from 2015 until now has gotten worse, because these social media has grown a lot.

As I said before, I gonna post some photos of personal hobbies, but without exposing me too much.

Anyway, I'm back. I hope you understand.

If you want to say something, say it. I'll answer you later.

So i am getting back into modding for Half-Life 1.
Right now im making a mod for it to make it feel more like a differant game compared to half-life's original campaign
Also the Page for Half-Life 2 Enhanced (Or VCE) has been removed because i was ashamed for the mod being on the website
I'll attempt to keep you guys posted on the Mods development

Hi I'm dabu, I'm a goth/spooky nerd (he/they) I'm a huge fan of the Half-Life series and other Boomer fps such as Wolfenstein, Quake and Doom. I'm a gamedev (mapper, texture artist and a source/goldsrc nerd) my favorite goldsrc mods are They Hunger, Afraid Of Monster and Half-Rats my favorite kind of music are classic/rock/metal song/music from 80/90s I always love to meet new peoples and having good times
Also I'm a archivist nerd
:)))

Nice to meet you everyone!

I'm also even working on a promising mp fps for source.

I created gamingparents.org right around the time when my son was born in 2007. I took the site down due to lack of activities, but I still have fond memories of running the site. I don't have any regrets having ventured into community building.

https://www.instagram.com/p/CWGJy_0lSKW/?utm_medium=copy_link

I find Mod Developing harder to do than Game Development on its own.
And Right now i have alot of ideas todo with Game Dev and not alot with Modding on its own!
Right now i'm working on a Sci-Fi FPS called Protocol Orion (Thanks to SolidRogue on Discord for the name idea) and i will be temporarily stepping back on being a "Mod Developer"
Well thats it for now but happy modding (I'll stay active on here and the TWHL Discord )

I where banned from a discord server dedicated to the OG Xbox version of Half-Life 2 some time ago. Still feel a bit bad about it even if I don't remember what I did.

Or maybe they shut it off. Don't know.

Would you look at that, I've been a member for half my life