Commented 2 days ago2024-02-22 23:57:18 UTC in journal: /bɜːθdeɪ/ Comment #106004
Happy birthday mate!
Commented 3 weeks ago2024-02-02 01:53:19 UTC in wiki page: multi_manager Comment #105949
I think that's Sven Co-op-specific, isn't it?
opens up the code
Yeah, there's nothing in HL SDK that points to the parsing of #N there. It is always USE_TOGGLE. Either way though, good to know!
Commented 1 month ago2023-12-26 12:03:34 UTC in journal: A new home Comment #105795
Wow, that looks and sounds pretty nice. Best wishes!
Commented 2 months ago2023-12-21 14:08:00 UTC in journal: How or where are you gonna spend your vacations? Comment #105774
I spent about 3 days on a boat and I went to Dubrovnik, Croatia. So there's that. Time to work thru Christmas!
Commented 2 months ago2023-11-26 16:25:15 UTC in journal: Worth the weight? Comment #105662
Another update: winter is right around the corner, which means I'll be gaining some weight again. But! This summer I managed to reach 79 kg. I'm extremely happy, you've no idea.
Commented 2 months ago2023-11-26 16:12:23 UTC in journal: So I drink coffee now... Comment #105661
I once drank iced coffee in the afternoon and managed to stay up til 6 in the morning.
Never doing that again unless I really really reallyyyy have to. Few things in life are worth sacrificing one's sleep.
Commented 2 months ago2023-11-26 16:06:49 UTC in journal: Goldsrc BSP relational model Comment #105660
Epic. Soon we'll be able to store BSPs in SQL databases
Commented 3 months ago2023-11-12 02:13:04 UTC in vault item: Lab Break Comment #105634
Holy heck, you actually did it lmao
Commented 3 months ago2023-11-07 12:40:39 UTC in journal: 2 Years of me being on the site Comment #105628
Happy 2nd accountiversary!
Commented 3 months ago2023-11-03 23:38:49 UTC in journal: Mapping-Fusion! 🇫🇷🇫🇷 Comment #105616
Oh my. It is already making me wanna learn French.
Commented 3 months ago2023-11-02 14:55:05 UTC in vault item: Learing HL sdk Comment #105615
Hai! This ain't looking too bad.
You can get J.A.C.K. instead of using Hammer. You can find it in the tools section on our Wiki. You may also ask questions on the forums here and/or on the Discord server. Happy mapping!
Commented 3 months ago2023-10-26 18:15:53 UTC in journal: We promise you a new map in 2 weeks, or you get to yell at us! - DONE! Comment #105609
Alrighty, I'll set a reminder on the 10th of November to yell at you. :walter:
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Commented 4 months ago2023-10-18 16:15:58 UTC in journal: One of those journals... Comment #105592
Ah. That was a lot simpler than anticipated. That's a banger album too.
Commented 4 months ago2023-10-18 16:08:59 UTC in journal: One of those journals... Comment #105591
Happy birthday! Now time to figure out the numba
Commented 4 months ago2023-10-15 22:44:54 UTC in journal: CS2 Hammer editor minimum requirements Comment #105589
I do not believe that is exactly right. I'll have to test this on my brother's Athlon 200GE rig with no dedicated GPU.
From what I know CS2's Hammer has this fancy lighting preview mode, which uses RTX. There should hopefully still be a CPU raytraced fallback.
Commented 4 months ago2023-10-05 17:21:17 UTC in journal: Zombies Comment #105578
Happy birthday! Zombies are yummy
Commented 5 months ago2023-09-09 00:16:40 UTC in journal: Just need to vent a bit. Comment #105551
I was referring to the group that refers to themselves as "anti-furries" who have been known to do stuff like release chlorine gas upon conventions.
Oh yeah no, those folks, if it weren't for the law I'd be returning the favour.
Thrilled to read how self-actualised Admer has become after struggling with a lot of this stuff in the past.
2016 me vs. current me is definitely one hell of a character development arc, I'm glad you got to observe parts of it. Life really is a movie.
Commented 5 months ago2023-09-08 16:16:00 UTC in journal: Just need to vent a bit. Comment #105547
Furthermore, I identify as a furry, and I believe I am, but I seem to be more... hardcore (if that's the right word) about it than the rest of the fandom.
And that's okay. hugs
I actually care about the politics of the situation, as opposed to the rest of the fandom, which doesn't even seem to care that there is a group of literal domestic terrorists directly and personally opposing them.
If you mean the US, I dunno. I have a feeling many care, but simply aren't in enough power so there's fear involved. Globally? Well, in some places there just aren't issues like that.

In my country, furries are unheard of and I'm certain if there were to ever be a furry convention here, we'd see the same events that happened in Belgrade in 2001, when Serbia's first pride parade happened. You don't wanna know what happened.

I do confront people who say bullshit though. Sometimes I deem it too risky or simply not worth my time, but when I see a good opportunity to point out that someone's hatred/disliking/disrespect - of not just furries - is utterly irrational and senseless, I take it.
I'm used to being a shade of gray. I suppose I find some comfort in not being a perfect fit for a hole, because it at least means I'll be unique enough to stand out (I mean, I have a fox fursona who's not a femboy, and I'm still an interesting person!) But in being different in ways nobody talks about, I have no reference point. How am I supposed to know if I'm a one-in-a-million, or if I'm part of a silent majority, if it's silent?
I believe every individual is a unique permutation of all the possible features an individual may have, even if just slightly different.
That aside though, yeah. "Nobody's talking about it so nobody knows about it", I guess most people are just too busy to think about it.

My fox sona isn't a femboy either, BTW. I went from being a straight non-furry in 2017, to a bi questioning-furry in 2018, to a pan furry in 2021. Similarly my views on a lot of things (and of my own self) have shifted over the years. Positively, I may say. And they will keep doing that.
Considering my neurodivergency, I have even less to compare myself too, because I can't even assume that basic human psychology always applies. Often it does, but sometimes it doesn't. I'm basically just floating in a void.
Yeah but like, what's the purpose of this comparison? If anything, I'd just occasionally compare past selves and current self to analyse and potentially improve future self. I don't think you need to compare yourself to someone in order to define yourself, because ultimately, you are you.
so yeah be special but not too special
Nah, be as special as you are. No such thing as 'too special'. I know you meant something else, but just sayin'.
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Commented 5 months ago2023-08-29 12:54:54 UTC in journal: 闲记杂谈Blah Comment #105518
I think the whole idea of "loving" a job is not right in the first place. How can you love a dead thing? You can love people, and people can love you back.
It depends on how you define a job. To some people, a job is merely a contract. To me, a job is some paid activity + people relevant to that activity. So indeed if I love that job, I love the people, and I love performing the activity partly because of passion and partly because of the people.
Commented 5 months ago2023-08-28 13:05:40 UTC in journal: 闲记杂谈Blah Comment #105513
Translation: "It's hard to find a job..."

It is kind of easy, I'd say. The hard thing is to find a job that you love.
Commented 5 months ago2023-08-26 18:12:22 UTC in journal: My thoughts on the thanking discussion Comment #105510
I would prefer a community that is nice to talk to.
Commented 5 months ago2023-08-26 10:26:46 UTC in journal: My thoughts on the thanking discussion Comment #105508
I see Bruce would prefer a community where nobody says thanks
Commented 6 months ago2023-08-11 17:14:15 UTC in journal: Creating maps with chrome on GoldSource Comment #105467
Oh right I forgot: you can actually hack the normals in Blender, no need for actual bulges on geometry.
Commented 6 months ago2023-07-31 22:43:29 UTC in journal: Creating maps with chrome on GoldSource Comment #105452
You need to actually cut up the faces into smaller ones and then give them a slight bulge, for lack of a better word. Make them pinch out, so there are actually varying angles to work with.

Although with brushes, you'd get flat shading, so eh...
Commented 6 months ago2023-07-26 11:51:50 UTC in journal: Gothic cathedral Comment #105446
You are beginning to kinda "spam" the journals. It'd be nice to start one journal for one topic and keep posting updates on it (example: GoldSRC + Godot = ???). If it's more tightly related to GoldSRC/Source, it would be a good idea to start a thread about it, or even post in the WiP screenshots thread: Post your screenshots!

Anyway, that is very nice, keep going! My largest map was probably 12 MB with lord knows how many brushes. Just make sure it's optimised enough and fits within BSP limits.
Commented 6 months ago2023-07-25 10:10:35 UTC in journal: Cushions Comment #105445
Hmm you're right about the sound.
Commented 7 months ago2023-07-24 21:39:00 UTC in journal: Cushions Comment #105443
func_water is also a good cushion!
Commented 7 months ago2023-07-23 22:34:02 UTC in journal: Whoa, I failed at the most important place Comment #105440
It happens. I feel my skills have rotten a bit too.
Commented 7 months ago2023-07-18 21:35:26 UTC in vault item: Tight Comment #105410
The wooden floor texture is definitely one of the wood textures from CS 1.6, so it's fine.
Commented 8 months ago2023-06-05 12:20:18 UTC in journal: Moving is successful Comment #105332
That is amazing to hear, esp. the neighbour part. Congrats on the successful relocation!
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Commented 9 months ago2023-05-07 00:00:41 UTC in journal: GoldSRC + Godot = ??? (continued) Comment #105244
Surprisingly there has been some. I managed to fit BTX's interactive console into Elegy, hooked it all up via ENet, so it's good. I also have a map compiler now.
March 2023March 2023
I happen to be making a game in Unity, which is gonna be an excellent challenge to port to Elegy after that's done. I'm expecting to do that by September.
Commented 10 months ago2023-04-22 20:22:54 UTC in journal: Zinc Comment #105220
Happy birthday!!!
Commented 10 months ago2023-04-15 09:49:38 UTC in journal: De_??? showcase Comment #105203
Suggestion: use proper formatting. You can click on the video icon here:
User posted image
And then you'll see something like:
[youtube:youtube_id|caption text]
Delete the caption text part, and paste the video ID (the part after v= in the URL), so you're left with
You get this:
Commented 11 months ago2023-03-20 18:40:23 UTC in journal: What Winning a Map of the Month Award When I Was 14 Taught Me Comment #105178
I've just realised how much TWHL contributed to my current personality. When my parents and other IRL people just brushed things off as "not normal" and similar labels, TWHL folks would actually talk to me about some things, and probably have endured way more than my parents ever did lol. All the cringe things I used to post back in the day.

I don't remember you, probably because I only joined here in 2016 (when I was 14), but yeah, I learned a fun piece of TWHL history. Hello!
Commented 11 months ago2023-03-13 17:39:36 UTC in journal: Annual vita log 0x015 Comment #105171
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Commented 11 months ago2023-03-03 14:05:11 UTC in journal: Working on a small HL enhancement mod, anyone interested? Comment #105154
I would be pretty interested in something like that.
Commented 11 months ago2023-03-03 13:41:37 UTC in journal: Annual vita log 0x015 Comment #105153
Welp, boyfriend went back home last night. The last 10 days were amazing. I'm not even sad, I'm still super happy it actually happened.
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Commented 1 year ago2023-02-23 22:33:13 UTC in journal: Finished 21, Today 22 Comment #105129
Happy birthday!
Commented 1 year ago2023-02-23 18:33:42 UTC in journal: Annual vita log 0x015 Comment #105127
First real, proper love, I should note. I've had online relationships until now, but this is the first one that actually crossed the boundaries. Quite literally.

My boy travelled from central Europe all the way to Bosnia just to spend 10 days with me, and I wanna do everything in my might to absolutely reward that effort & make it worth it.

Thanks y'all for the birthday wishes!
Commented 1 year ago2023-02-18 20:21:41 UTC in journal: A Poem Comment #105107
Twenty two? Happy birthday!
Commented 1 year ago2023-02-10 11:55:47 UTC in journal: Science Team Comment #105094
Happy birt- oh wait, it's not your birthday yet
Commented 1 year ago2023-02-04 13:43:54 UTC in journal: Worth the weight? Comment #105079

Also update: I have 82 kg right now. Progress is real.
Commented 1 year ago2023-02-04 13:43:01 UTC in journal: GoldSRC + Godot = ??? (continued) Comment #105078
Aw thanks, but I wouldn't compare myself to Carmack in the slightest, though I will admit I draw heavy inspiration from some of his philosophy. I see him as a tinkerer who prefers practical & simplistic solutions, at least did back in the 90s, dunno how he is nowadays. And I happen to share that preference.

Anyway oof, I appear to have a nasty cold right now.
Commented 1 year ago2023-01-29 23:15:30 UTC in journal: GoldSRC + Godot = ??? (continued) Comment #105035
Update: we on Linux now
User posted image
It manages to run on my 2012 Fujitsu S792 (Intel HD Graphics 4000 + mobile Intel Core i5 + 4 GB RAM) at about 15fps, which isn't too far off from what I expected, though NGL I kinda was hoping for 30fps... oh well, that's what I get for using Vulkan on hardware older than the API itself.

Now, I'm most likely not touching this thing until March, because February will be full of exams.