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satchmo9 months ago2022-02-03 12:49:59 UTC 0 comments
"Don't be evil" was Google's founding motto.

I watched "Skyfall" for the third time last night, and it occurred to me that all the Bond villains suffered childhood trauma. Some of the trauma were unimaginably brutal (I guess that's an oxymoron, because obviously someone imagined it to fictionalize the background story into the character).

In Skyfall, Raoul Silva was betrayed by his own country, just as Bond suffered a near-fatal friendly fire at the start of the film. The different outcomes experienced by these two characters were determined by their support system. Bond, despite not having any close family ties, had a strong family-like unit at work.

Lyutsifer Safin also suffered unspeakable trauma when he became the lone survivor of an assassination campaign by Spectre. Consequently, he became a ruthless killer and planned to exterminate most of the world's population.

You may wonder how Madeleine Swan emerged unscathed, after she was abandoned by her criminal father and alcoholic mother, and also witnessed her mother's execution. Perhaps she was able to rescue herself by becoming a psychoanalyst.

We are all going through something, and we are all survivors of past trauma. The difference in outcome is how we cope and heal. If we have a secure support system, we can emerge stronger and more resilient. Otherwise, we may live in our own evil lair and plan for doomsday as our personal hobby.
satchmo9 months ago2022-02-01 10:42:09 UTC 3 comments
I haven't been this excited since Black Mesa source came out.

https://youtu.be/3psDfVNto8Y
VeryCoolMoment10 months ago2022-01-26 19:14:12 UTC 14 comments
Ok so i hope you didnt just randomly click on this but, I cancelled my Steam Deck order over anxiety of it being bad and hard to refund
(Most of you will be angry but) With the money i'll be putting it towards the Macbook Air (The M1 one) in Space Grey
Sure i know ill get messages which is mostly like "Why are you buying a macbook isn't it underpowered?" but the M1 Chip in the Air is Fast, Like Really Fast and the M1 MBA released in 2020 so theres a ton of reviews on the MBA, While the Steam Deck hasn't even been released yet

Ending this here with just this
I might get the Deck in 1-2 years if its any better than its release early this year (The Release Date has been announced just now)

Edit: I'm using the MBA as a Programming and Social machine
This is my first Mac so yeah I might try gaming but like Half-Life or some smaller and lighter games
After figuring how to change the hud color for my HL1 mod, I though I'd just try doing something similar for The Vorts!
All it took was a couple lines edited, all of them in the hldll's islave.cpp file.

line 744: m_pBeam[m_iBeams]->SetColor(151, 0, 255); //this will give it a nice purple color!

line 790: m_pBeam[m_iBeams]->SetColor(151, 0, 255); //I think this is for the cut revive, lets change the color anyways!

line 820: m_pBeam[m_iBeams]->SetColor(151, 0, 255); //same as the last bit of purple lightning, but this one hurts!
And voilàAnd voilà
Think I could get it to cycle some colors too if I wanted, but I thought I'd share this for now!
Meerjel0110 months ago2022-01-02 20:27:19 UTC 3 comments
Just felt like putting a link to my Twitter here. Might start some sort of conversation.

Meerjel01's Twitter
Overfloater10 months ago2022-01-02 16:50:17 UTC 6 comments
I am not sure who will be reading this or even care, but I felt like putting this out there. I have been a member of the community on and off since 2005, and I had my checkered history. I came back a few years ago to try and set things right, and I think I managed to mostly remedy some bad decisions and actions. To try and do right by God, and God's will for my life, and by my own conscience.

However, after I have finished the Pathos Engine, I realized I don't really have any real reason to be in the Half-Life community anymore. I am working on a video game now, not a Half-Life mod. I however still sometimes produce content, like Half-Life models, etc. I might still post that here. However, I have decided it's time I moved on. For this reason I am leaving the Half-Life modding community, hopefully on much better terms than I tried to last time. I have deleted my Discord account also, to focus more on my creative work and job. I do my best creative work in solutide anyway.

I want to say thanks to everyone who was kind to me, and thanks to the people who gave me a second/third chance. I hope people enjoyed the content I created, and will enjoy any future content I create. I doubt I will return again, but if I do, well, we'lll see how it goes. Nothing in life is certain.

And for those I've left without a real explanation, let it be this: Sometimes there's irrevocable differences between two individuals which cannot be resolved, and I might not see a future for said relation. It is not my intention to leave on a bad note. I sometimes just don't see a solution, which might be an error in me.

In the meantime, I will try and realize what God has intended for me to do with the remainder of my life.

Thank you.
VeryCoolMoment11 months ago2021-12-25 17:17:34 UTC 2 comments
If your not in any groups or servers im in on Discord you might not know this but i am working on a Game in the Unity Game engine called Protocol Orion, Set in the HINDSIGHT Universe in deep space on a Lunar-Corporation Station that was designed to search the universe

There is no set release date but expect me to release something about the game in 2022!
Admer45611 months ago2021-12-23 20:21:32 UTC 7 comments
Yep. Cambreaker recently accidentally gifted me Hunt Down the Freeman, and chances are, I might stream it on TWHL Discord on Christmas.
User posted image
It's a bit early for me to say "merry Christmas", so I'll wait a bit. User posted image
Meerjel0111 months ago2021-12-22 08:14:17 UTC 9 comments
My conscious. I had an idea for a comic involving the Half-Life 1 Alpha. It's gonna be like my Marathon comic where an OC walks around in Black Mesa doing funny things and getting herself into danger. I haven't started with it yet and it might not be made.

I already have a funny parody comic and I'm usually not making fan art of popular things like Half-Life. But if someone wants to change my mind then go ahead. I can listen.
Dimbeak11 months ago2021-12-14 14:56:53 UTC 6 comments
satchmo11 months ago2021-12-12 13:12:07 UTC 5 comments
With my vast spare time from being a full-time pediatrician, president of the Rotary Club, writing two novels, I decided that I should create the website for my son's soccer team.

https://www.millikanboyssoccer.org/

Granted, they're pretty kick-ass (well, most of the times they try to kick the ball rather than asses, but they do both).
MMProductions1 year ago2021-11-26 19:18:50 UTC 3 comments
After a few years of absence, in addition to problems and turmoils, I'm finally back.

I have a lot of new stuff to show, like new maps, some photos of hobbies and... maybe some mods to unveil.

The reason I came back is because I have matured, and I realized that reserved sites, like forums and this community, are very safe. Unlike social networks such as Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, YouTube, among others...

Too much life exposure drains you. The internet from 2015 until now has gotten worse, because these social media has grown a lot.

As I said before, I gonna post some photos of personal hobbies, but without exposing me too much.

Anyway, I'm back. I hope you understand.

If you want to say something, say it. I'll answer you later.
VeryCoolMoment1 year ago2021-11-21 17:25:59 UTC 5 comments
So i am getting back into modding for Half-Life 1.
Right now im making a mod for it to make it feel more like a differant game compared to half-life's original campaign
Also the Page for Half-Life 2 Enhanced (Or VCE) has been removed because i was ashamed for the mod being on the website
I'll attempt to keep you guys posted on the Mods development
Daburubareru1 year ago2021-11-11 11:27:09 UTC 21 comments
Hi I'm dabu, I'm a goth/spooky nerd (he/they) I'm a huge fan of the Half-Life series and other Boomer fps such as Wolfenstein, Quake and Doom. I'm a gamedev (mapper, texture artist and a source/goldsrc nerd) my favorite goldsrc mods are They Hunger, Afraid Of Monster and Half-Rats my favorite kind of music are classic/rock/metal song/music from 80/90s I always love to meet new peoples and having good times
Also I'm a archivist nerd
:)))

Nice to meet you everyone!

I'm also even working on a promising mp fps for source.
satchmo1 year ago2021-11-10 13:03:50 UTC 2 comments
I created gamingparents.org right around the time when my son was born in 2007. I took the site down due to lack of activities, but I still have fond memories of running the site. I don't have any regrets having ventured into community building.

https://www.instagram.com/p/CWGJy_0lSKW/?utm_medium=copy_link