Commented 5 months ago2021-08-01 14:30:32 UTC in journal: ⚠️ Help ⚠️ Comment #103643
This is primarily for American citizens and I respect the choice to not sign it.
Commented 1 year ago2020-12-05 23:28:23 UTC in vault item: Open The Door... Comment #103120
I quite literally forgot that.
Commented 1 year ago2020-12-03 14:50:37 UTC in vault item: Open The Door... Comment #103106

In my defense, I made that map while on Prozac.
Also I don’t even have the map anymore, it was on an old computer. ;( feel kinda bad about all this.

Still, I’m rather impressed you found them all. It wasn’t my intention to tease. Congrats!
Commented 1 year ago2020-08-05 03:58:56 UTC in journal: I lifted a cinder block today Comment #102854
Happy Birthday!
Commented 1 year ago2020-07-18 22:08:30 UTC in journal: Tragedy Comment #102793
Thank you, that’s very sweet. That photo sums it up pretty much.
Commented 1 year ago2020-03-12 19:35:05 UTC in vault item: Razorback Comment #102578
I need to play this again but sober.
Commented 1 year ago2020-02-24 02:29:24 UTC in journal: 0x0012 Comment #102549
Motherfucking cake,
On this motherfucking day.

It’s a haiku. ^_^
Commented 1 year ago2020-02-22 13:23:08 UTC in vault item: dm_perthowned Comment #102544
Gorgeous map but not the most optimized it could be. With something like this, your VIS settings matter a lot and there are things that can be done to lower the r_speeds and increase frame rates. But overall it is a masterfully constructed map. Bravo.
Commented 2 years ago2019-11-01 13:59:12 UTC in journal: ...just personal things....mixed with some fiction Comment #102412
I’ve felt the same way. I still do only instead of mapping like it nice was, it’s the indie game scene. In over ten years I still only have snippets of things that I believe could turn into something good and all I need is time and money that I certainly don’t have. Then the depression tells me I’m not good enough, the anxiety tells me I will never be good enough, and the autism tells me I’m stupid. I, too, look at other indie devs and games in despair. Maybe I’m wasting my time.


This community (and many others) is very supportive. We teach each other and learn from each other, from new to veteran alike. Even if that involves learning how to manage yourself because sometimes an artist’s worse hinderance is often some part of themself they have yet to master. If you want to map, find what inspires you no matter what it is. A favorite book, song, movie, especially a game, anything that makes you wonder. Sometimes a competition theme meets that inspiration half-way and you get a whole idea. Whatever gets you going, but you have to at least start. Could always try making a simple room or scene. People will be glad to look at it and see what you can make.

Commented 2 years ago2019-11-01 11:17:06 UTC in journal: Atomic Number 28 Comment #102411
Happy birthday! Sorry I’m late. Ima just steal this leftover cake from the fridge. Six days old is still good, right?
Commented 2 years ago2019-10-11 15:42:17 UTC in vault item: Gravity Lift Example Comment #102323
Couldn't open dm_stalkfire.wad :(

Overall this is something I've never seen before. It's very cool.
Curious how this will be included in future maps/projects.
Commented 2 years ago2019-09-18 16:59:40 UTC in journal: Brain Surgery 2 Comment #102274
It went well. We’re home now and the doctor said it all went according to plan. She’s not in any extra pain which is good. They used acupuncture to make sure her nerves were ok during the procedure which is an interesting thing. Overall recovery is going very well.
Commented 2 years ago2019-09-08 17:28:44 UTC in vault item: Open The Door... Comment #102261
Made that promised update. Windawz suggested making the buttons shootable and I agree. None of the locations changed. Totally forgot the +USE function ignores walls. This is likely a final but who knows.
Commented 2 years ago2019-09-05 11:43:28 UTC in vault item: dm_eightball Comment #102250
This map is insanely well made. Good job.
Commented 2 years ago2019-08-02 01:53:13 UTC in journal: cool smiley guy Comment #102190
Happy birthday!
Commented 2 years ago2019-07-29 11:55:59 UTC in journal: It's the thing Comment #102181
TWHL is the only place I know that does this. I love how it has evolved over the decades.

Happy Birthday!
Commented 2 years ago2019-06-03 01:16:39 UTC in journal: Giant Dump Comment #102046
I think I shall, good sir.
Commented 2 years ago2019-06-02 13:39:53 UTC in journal: Giant Dump Comment #102041
Not that I would, but Mushrooms actually repair the constricted neurons in the frontal lobe that attribute to anxiety and depression as well as other things. I’d do well with just Medical Cannabis though.
Commented 2 years ago2019-05-30 20:03:25 UTC in journal: Giant Dump Comment #102033
Stojke that might be my long term treatment. I may get a medical cannabis card since it would actually treat three things in one.
Commented 2 years ago2019-05-29 15:09:07 UTC in journal: Giant Dump Comment #102030

I don’t doubt that people are slowly evolving/mutating.

Potatis, that’s rather uplifting. Just wish there were options for me to improve our situation.

And thank you everyone for the support.
Commented 2 years ago2019-05-28 23:17:22 UTC in journal: Giant Dump Comment #102026
Yeah I make less that 2k a year and I have dental work to get done and I’m in pain all the time and I can’t take pain meds because of drug interactions, but I also want to buy food. So. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Commented 2 years ago2019-05-27 22:51:46 UTC in journal: Giant Dump Comment #102021
It seems that way these days, doesn’t it? But abnormal traits were observed by a peer and a neuropsychologist in the room with me. It was an up-to-date test and it turned out I was on the spectrum. There are simple things I can’t do that I need help with. The depression is so bad it’s chemical. This all happened in October, and I wouldn’t put it on the internet if I wasn’t sure.
Commented 2 years ago2019-03-22 16:15:34 UTC in journal: Another Brain Surgery? Comment #101928
She thanks you all for the well-wishes. However, they found nothing but a little swelling. Kinda anticlimactic but I guess in this situation, it’s a good thing. She’s recovering now just fine and will be back to things in about a week.
Commented 2 years ago2019-03-20 17:15:27 UTC in journal: Another Brain Surgery? Comment #101926
You guys are great, she’s happy to see all your wishes. Just to let you know, she still has a folder full of all the original emails from the first one. She appreciates you guys that much.
Commented 2 years ago2019-02-24 17:36:30 UTC in journal: 0x0011 Comment #101831
Happy Birthday!!!
Commented 2 years ago2019-02-15 02:34:30 UTC in journal: I make books. Comment #101820
Oh, thanks.
Also, if Urby gets baked with Italians, that’s understandable. ^_^
Commented 2 years ago2019-02-14 22:54:39 UTC in journal: I make books. Comment #101818
Bruce: I could bind textblocks if I had a printer.

Admer: ^^^

Srojke: I wish but I have a tiny studio.

Bruce: I’ve done both but I have a method with glue that holds super well. The “leather” is black solidcore paper lacquered with mod podge.

Urby: Don’t put Italians in your oven. (Mook is a racial slur!)
Commented 2 years ago2019-02-03 15:23:56 UTC in journal: I'm not dead! Comment #101801
Glad to know you’re safe, fires are no joke :(
Commented 3 years ago2019-01-07 15:22:00 UTC in journal: It's 2019! Get those Christmas hats outta here Comment #101713

(Happy new year!)
Commented 3 years ago2018-12-05 16:29:25 UTC in journal: Christmas Avatars (Chrivatars) Comment #101666
Commented 3 years ago2018-11-11 17:38:56 UTC in journal: I’m really bad about these things... Comment #101618
A miracle happened and my hospital visit was waived. I qualified for something and that service took care of the costs. I got a very happy letter that said my account had been adjusted to zero. All I have to do is pay the radiology department which is kinda not a big deal. I'm very grateful, though I don't know what I did to deserve it, but it encourages me to want to release and close projects.
Commented 3 years ago2018-11-05 21:50:10 UTC in journal: I’m really bad about these things... Comment #101613
There is an update... but it will take some organization to announce and explain things. :/
Commented 3 years ago2018-11-01 14:43:02 UTC in journal: I’m really bad about these things... Comment #101596
If I’m going to get funding for anything, it’d be for my projects. Though, it really does feel like a fine for a stupid genetic condition. I could choose a fun number of petty crimes that would incur less in fees and fines, and that would be my choice, but I didn’t choose any of this. I have a healthy lifestyle, and it’s sick that that was never an issue. What gets me is simply seeing how decrepit the system is and how it’s messed up everything. A colleague and phenomenal artist had passed from a medical complication before she could get her degree. She couldn’t afford what she needed, and that shit stole her from making the world a brighter place, and that shit scares me. The system failed her, and the world lost a promising artist. I can’t fail nor be failed upon either, I’ve got shit to get done.

Ugh. Steroids rant.
Commented 3 years ago2018-10-26 14:46:00 UTC in journal: I’m really bad about these things... Comment #101579
I’m home now but I got some serious challenges. First of all, the medication I have to take for the rest of my life is fucking $4,800! Even the doc was apologizing about the price before he even named it.

And yes I did do work on my phone for things. I never stop.
Commented 3 years ago2018-10-18 11:31:46 UTC in journal: One of THOSE journals... Comment #101562
Welcome to 32!
This comment was made on an article that has been deleted.
Commented 3 years ago2018-07-11 20:13:12 UTC in journal: History Repeating Itself Comment #101354
He’s started attacking civilian citizens already. A friend narrowly escaped, and as a result they torched her house.

It’s begun.
Commented 3 years ago2018-06-22 21:09:57 UTC in journal: History Repeating Itself Comment #101292
Don’t worry I’ll be safe. I’m no Gordon Freeman but I will do what I can. I also have an evac plan in case it all goes to shit which is more likely than otherwise because I have family to worry about.
Commented 3 years ago2018-06-21 23:01:12 UTC in journal: History Repeating Itself Comment #101288
I have plans for protesting. I also have ingredients for Molotov cocktails. Not a joke.
Commented 3 years ago2018-03-26 22:27:38 UTC in journal: #8923 Comment #49786
People self medicate. Americans work way too hard for shitty unlivable income. I’m literally
unemployed and I still have two odd-jobs to barely make the gap.
Commented 3 years ago2018-03-20 00:15:22 UTC in journal: #8923 Comment #49785
There are two days a year that does a rare thing. On saint patricks day, Americans choose to be a different nationality and celebrate it. We respect the Irish because they can out drink us.

The other day is Martin Luther King Jr. Day because we know we done fucked up.
Commented 3 years ago2018-02-09 04:59:26 UTC in journal: #8910 Comment #51127
Start charging when it becomes an inconvenience to you.
Commented 4 years ago2017-10-27 13:45:38 UTC in journal: #8883 Comment #61291
May the fates, fortunes, and muses smile upon your day of aging!
Commented 4 years ago2017-09-29 21:41:28 UTC in journal: #8871 Comment #48452
Ram: 16 gigabytes of force lightning.
Motherboard: One the original slates God's Ten Commandments were written upon.
Graphics Card: Eye of Sauron++ on acid and it's a Friday night.
Audio Card: a potato chip.

And free Mcafee.

I don't know what I would do with that much power. I suppose photoshop would finally run better I guess. Glad you're get a hot new rig, a lot of games seem rather unoptimized these days.
Commented 4 years ago2017-09-19 15:06:16 UTC in journal: #8864 Comment #68435
Gonna drop some truth on you.

You'll be fine. And always remember the golden rule: for every year of education, you need that many years of the real world to undo the damage and learn to be yourself. The 30's are
pretty good, you have time, money, and energy to put your life together. As for high school, keep your hobbies as they are but also learn a practical trade like cooking or plumbing. Start aiming for what you want now so you'll be ahead of the competition when you get there. There is no level playing field and life isn't fair at all. You can make no mistakes and still lose. However, people are naturally fascinated by others that do things exceptionally well. Always remember that golden rule too: it'll take ten thousand hours of practice to make it to the world's stage.
Commented 4 years ago2017-09-13 01:10:54 UTC in journal: #8862 Comment #42447
Mass scale black outs are fucking scary. No traffic lights makes every intersection really dangerous. There's no stores open, barely any phone or data services. And even worse, looters. Things got a little real.
Commented 4 years ago2017-09-13 00:10:12 UTC in journal: #8862 Comment #42446
Thanks. Power is on now which is fortunate. Some areas are still looking to be out for another ten days.
Commented 4 years ago2017-09-12 00:44:17 UTC in journal: #8862 Comment #42445
The real test is lasting the power outage. Don't know how many days it'll be.
Commented 4 years ago2017-09-08 00:59:41 UTC in journal: #8860 Comment #53003
Are you making a machinima?
Commented 4 years ago2017-08-29 13:07:15 UTC in journal: #8857 Comment #61570
Lies, it must be code :0

Happy birthday!